ah christmastime-
i've only been home for 12 hours and i'd like very much to be back at my own place of residence. it may be a nic fit, but i really like having my own space and doing my own thing... though i hate being by myself, hahaha. being at mom's is different, and i find it harder to stay so long every passing year.
things with old boy are... strange. the sex is still awesome, which is why i called him in the first place, but now i feel like he's going through a lot more than i am when it comes to the two of us. i'm not saying i don't have feelings for him, because i do, but i know now that it's never going to work and i'm just biding my time until i meet someone (i've told him this and said before we saw each other again that i was not interested in a relationship.). i just get a feeling that he realizes what he gave up and that he regrets it. our current trysts involve him kissing me hello (which he never did), watching movies, sex, food and sweet kissies goodbye. it's WEIRD, man. i haven't heard from him in a few days, so i'm thinking he may be decompressing so as not to give me the wrong idea that i do not have
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went to a party last night. it ended up being an uncomfortable political debate that i couldn't wait to get out of. i may as well tattoo "dirty, rotten liberal" across my chest, but i actually enjoy INTELLIGENT debates and conversations with people who disagree with me. this was a shitshow of finger pointing and "well, my MOM did this..."
the mom comments were coming out of a grown ass man who should know better. it was sad because one of his friends was cute and though he didn't raise his voice and politely countered when this dude was shouting incorrect things, i couldn't help but create a "guilty by association" type thing. i don't wand to have to hang around the obnoxious one in order to get to know this dude, so i guess that's just not going to happen...
side note: the puppet baby grinch in the jim carrey version of "how the grinch stole christmas" is adorable. ADORABLE.
i've only been home for 12 hours and i'd like very much to be back at my own place of residence. it may be a nic fit, but i really like having my own space and doing my own thing... though i hate being by myself, hahaha. being at mom's is different, and i find it harder to stay so long every passing year.
things with old boy are... strange. the sex is still awesome, which is why i called him in the first place, but now i feel like he's going through a lot more than i am when it comes to the two of us. i'm not saying i don't have feelings for him, because i do, but i know now that it's never going to work and i'm just biding my time until i meet someone (i've told him this and said before we saw each other again that i was not interested in a relationship.). i just get a feeling that he realizes what he gave up and that he regrets it. our current trysts involve him kissing me hello (which he never did), watching movies, sex, food and sweet kissies goodbye. it's WEIRD, man. i haven't heard from him in a few days, so i'm thinking he may be decompressing so as not to give me the wrong idea that i do not have
.
went to a party last night. it ended up being an uncomfortable political debate that i couldn't wait to get out of. i may as well tattoo "dirty, rotten liberal" across my chest, but i actually enjoy INTELLIGENT debates and conversations with people who disagree with me. this was a shitshow of finger pointing and "well, my MOM did this..."
the mom comments were coming out of a grown ass man who should know better
. it was sad because one of his friends was cute and though he didn't raise his voice and politely countered when this dude was shouting incorrect things, i couldn't help but create a "guilty by association" type thing. i don't wand to have to hang around the obnoxious one in order to get to know this dude, so i guess that's just not going to happen...
side note: the puppet baby grinch in the jim carrey version of "how the grinch stole christmas" is adorable. ADORABLE.