tatz

ugh,still sick. at and the worst possible time.

i saw the boy last week and was swept into the role of 'the other woman'. well, one of them anyway.

i think i'm getting tired of him. i really don't want to let him go, but i can't make him trust me or want to be with *just* me. i can say with total confidence that i at least deserve that much. he says he values my friendship and that's why he hasn't lied to me, which i believe. i just don't know if we can take sex out of what we have and be alright. i guess that's a problem?

whatever, i'll be seeing him on st. patty's day and hopefully chaos (ie, us fucking like animals) doesn't ensue.

ok, that's not going to happen. we're ridiculous when it comes to one another.

i just don't get why he doesn't make things easier on himself... i ain't no trouble, i swear!