tarnish

tonight is my best friends bon voyage party, he is leaving for Spain on the 29th. It's sudden and the thought of him leaving still gets me all misty, but I realised that all of my negative thoughts on his departure were due to jealousy. I realised that he is far to amazing and wonderful to be without love. I'm tired of seeing him be hurt by assholes, he is so very far above all that. It's not easy knowing I won't be able to call him whenever I feel like it. I remember when we were freshman in high school and we would get on the phone and talk for hours and hours, and he'd say something funny and I'd laugh, and he'd laugh at my laugh because it sounded funny, and then he'd make a weird sounding laugh and before we knew it we'd been laughing for over an hour and I'd have tears streaming down my face and my cheecks would be sore from smiling too much.

I wrote him a letter today to give to him tonight, I basically said that through the years I have watched him grow and change, and go through so many phases, but that through it all he's always been Roy, and that no matter where he is in the world he'll always be Roy, and Roy is my best friend...his heart is with Diego, and Diego is in Spain...and I know how it feels to love someone so much that you'd go to the ends of the earth to be with them, and I know that's how much he loves him. So if his happiness means being there, then I want him to go, because he has been alone and unhappy for far to long. This is his chance to feel love, and see the world, I can't wait to get his postcard.