tarbaby

try a woman?

I'm a closed little clam. I allow myself to love--sometimes--but goddamn it's hard to get me to share my secrets

i've been in love, so much so, that at times each heatbeat was a pulse of pain and promise. i've been in the kind of love, that consumes itself, because it's not fed enough by the other persons passion or presence. i've been loved by something that felt like greed and hunger. i've been loved by something that seemed like denial and fancy. Most of these went away. I still feel others. What I do know, for me, is that being in love with someone is not enough. I think it's unlikely that I'll ever find someone, that I can put up with, that can put up with how I love, for any significant period of time. I do think I'll find someone, who respects my secrets, and delights in making new ones with me.
Ya vas liubliu, comrade.


[Edited on Jul 25, 2003]