tallisker

So Keena has a girlfriend and a boyfriend and I'm jealous and impressed. Ironic though that I just used the word jealous, because that's exactly what's keeping me (and many others) from having too much of a good thing.
I wrote a post here months ago about dealing with a 'special friend's' jealousy over another friend of mine he felt threatened by. I made it clear that I was only sleeping with boy 1, who was alpha boy in every way, but boy 2 was good for going out dancing with, biking around in the empty night streets, hopping fences and running on tracks, and yeah...harmlessly flirting with as well. They're both just such lovely, smart and pretty boys, and they know their places, so why couldn't I have them both, in different capacities?
Jealousy.
Which is completely understandable, even if I'm not technically breaking the rules.
Boy 1 is just as jealous of certain women in my life, and why shouldn't he be? Knowing I could fall in love with a woman as easy as a man makes her just as threatening. I've never understood the "if it's another girl it's ok." Damn-if he started sleeping with another man I'd be crushed! The fact is, I love spending time with him, I love sleeping with him, and I don't like having to compete with anybody else for access to those things.
Nonetheless, there's something tempting about gripping jealousy by the horns and testing yourself, and your partner, to see if you couldn't both overcome the discomfort of learning to share, and gain something challenging, but amazing.