Login
Forgot Password?

OR

Login with Google Login with Twitter Login with Facebook
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • SuicideGirls
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
Vital Stats

takeshi21

Member Since 2002

Followers 78 Following 69

  • Everything
  • Photos
  • Video
  • Blogs
  • Groups
  • From Others

Tuesday Feb 11, 2003

Feb 11, 2003
0
  • Facebook
  • Tweet
  • Email
My life seems to becoming more and more like that of Lester Burnham. In case you've forgotten, Lester is the dysfunctionally functional character that Kevin Spacey plays in "American Beauty."

I'm under constant pressure to conform and mold myself into my boss' image, to become what he is, to attain his "success." There are a series of industry award ceremonies coming up that I've been asked to attend, although they're not particularly interesting and I'd expressed some of these thoughts. And this is what my boss emailed me over the weekend, in response:

"In the future, I think a more appropriate resonse would have been, "thank you for going to bat for me and getting me a ticket for the ceremony, I know it is very expensive and I am so excited to go. I also am really excited about going to the other events, it will be a great opportunity to interact with the community.

"You will not succeed, if you are not willing to go
'24-7' and make it your 'life'. Trust me, I know."

But I refuse to submit. I refuse to make, what is essentially a sales job into the meaning of my entire existence. I'm under pressure to keep going because Erin is still unemployed. But it's simply not within me to follow the lead of somebody so obsessed with such immaterial and foolish things as money and success.

For this, my life had become hell.

Word of the day: purgatory (n.) - 1 : an intermediate state after death for expiatory purification; specifically : a place or state of punishment wherein according to Roman Catholic doctrine the souls of those who die in God's grace may make satisfaction for past sins and so become fit for heaven. 2 : a place or state of temporary suffering or misery
VIEW 16 of 16 COMMENTS
amber:
Hey can you do me a fave and email me??PERTY PLEASE!Its vip...Thankswink
Feb 16, 2003
throatneedle:
I bought a keeper team yesterday! I'm loving the fantasy baseball!
Feb 16, 2003

More Blogs

  • 04.04.05
    6

    Monday Apr 04, 2005

    I'm fucking moving to a new place this coming weekend. And I'm prett…
  • 03.27.05
    5

    Sunday Mar 27, 2005

    I'm doing well, kids. No, really, I am. I still need to find a ne…
  • 03.07.05
    11

    Monday Mar 07, 2005

    It's very irritating not to be able to keep updating my journal here …
  • 03.03.05
    5

    Thursday Mar 03, 2005

    I'm at home for the moment. I had a meeting on this side of town and…
  • 03.02.05
    6

    Wednesday Mar 02, 2005

    Many, many apologies for being such a delinquent blog buddy. But, as…
  • 02.06.05
    18

    Sunday Feb 06, 2005

    And there I was on Saturday, bobbing up and down on a long, hollow pi…
  • 02.02.05
    7

    Wednesday Feb 02, 2005

    About 3 months ago some motherfuckers stole my car stereo. I'm now i…
  • 01.31.05
    11

    Monday Jan 31, 2005

    It looks like the relationship with my girlfriend of nearly five year…
  • 01.11.05
    15

    Tuesday Jan 11, 2005

    It finally stopped fucking raining!! I love getting any precipitat…
  • 01.01.05
    26

    Sunday Jan 02, 2005

    Happy new year, everybody! I hope yall are still alive from whatever…

We at SuicideGirls have been celebrating alternative pin-up girls for:

23
years
10
months
29
days
  • 5,509,826 fans
  • 41,393 fans
  • 10,327,617 followers
  • 4,600 SuicideGirls
  • 1,115,555 followers
  • 14,951,127 photos
  • 321,315 followers
  • 61,470,704 comments
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
  • Help
  • About
  • Press
  • LIVE

Legal/Tos | DMCA | Privacy Policy | 18 U.S.C. 2257 Record-Keeping Requirements Compliance Statement | Contact Us | Vendo Payment Support
©SuicideGirls 2001-2025

Press enter to search
Fast Hi-res

Click here to join & see it all...

Crop your photo