okay, so apparently a couple of the head cashiers are leaving (3 to be precise) and this opens up a few positions. under normal circumstances, i wouldnt give a shit, because the last thing i want is to be put in a position of authority. i dont like being told what to do, and becase of that i dont like telling people what to do. im not better than anyone, and although this wouldnt make me better than anyone, i dont like being "ahead" of others. id rather just do my own thing and be left alone.
now, i learned this yesterday. but for about the last week and a half ive been dragged along with a few of the head cashiers whenever they were doing their duties. nothing was said to me in partiular but i found it odd that i was being brought along on a regular basis, as if i was being groomed for something. i didnt say anything but i always notice these things. then i was told twice in the last two days by two of the head cashiers that i shoud go out for one of the opening positions. like i said, i wasnt considering it at first because i dont think im qualified, but apparently they all think i am, and so do a bunch of the other cashiers, several of whom have told me theyd like to see me get promoted. im not used to this. theyre all so damn nice to me. this after ive not felt like i have belonged, anywhere for about 5 years. its strange. and apparently i underestimate myself since i feel completely incapable, but they all see some leadership qualities in me. me....a leader. that makes me laugh actually. im not a follower by any means, but im hardly a leader.
then i got to thinking. i hate a bunch of the stupid ass policies of the fuckin place, and i really dont like the attitudes of some of the assholes in charge, so maybe if i get put in a position of authority, i can try and change some of the bullshit. the only other person going out for it to my knowledge is this girl kristen and shes a bitch to be blunt about it. however, that being the case, shes got many of the qualities that will help her case. that being shes pushy and likes to do things by the book. this as opposed to me whos all about being fair and talking to people like they arent lepers. plus the way i see it, i really dont have any room to bitch about it if i dont make some sort of attempt. its like people who bitch about the governemnt and do nothing else but bitch.
well, now moving on to other things....i need your opinions on something. okay, im starting to develop feelings for someone, and id really rather not. is there anything i can do to change this? i used to be able to turn my emotions off but somewhere along the line, i lost the ability.
now, i learned this yesterday. but for about the last week and a half ive been dragged along with a few of the head cashiers whenever they were doing their duties. nothing was said to me in partiular but i found it odd that i was being brought along on a regular basis, as if i was being groomed for something. i didnt say anything but i always notice these things. then i was told twice in the last two days by two of the head cashiers that i shoud go out for one of the opening positions. like i said, i wasnt considering it at first because i dont think im qualified, but apparently they all think i am, and so do a bunch of the other cashiers, several of whom have told me theyd like to see me get promoted. im not used to this. theyre all so damn nice to me. this after ive not felt like i have belonged, anywhere for about 5 years. its strange. and apparently i underestimate myself since i feel completely incapable, but they all see some leadership qualities in me. me....a leader. that makes me laugh actually. im not a follower by any means, but im hardly a leader.
then i got to thinking. i hate a bunch of the stupid ass policies of the fuckin place, and i really dont like the attitudes of some of the assholes in charge, so maybe if i get put in a position of authority, i can try and change some of the bullshit. the only other person going out for it to my knowledge is this girl kristen and shes a bitch to be blunt about it. however, that being the case, shes got many of the qualities that will help her case. that being shes pushy and likes to do things by the book. this as opposed to me whos all about being fair and talking to people like they arent lepers. plus the way i see it, i really dont have any room to bitch about it if i dont make some sort of attempt. its like people who bitch about the governemnt and do nothing else but bitch.
well, now moving on to other things....i need your opinions on something. okay, im starting to develop feelings for someone, and id really rather not. is there anything i can do to change this? i used to be able to turn my emotions off but somewhere along the line, i lost the ability.
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But yes. You should go for the job. I worked my ass off to become a McDonalds manager because I was sick to death with our management. As soon as I proved that I could do it and I was a helluva lot better than most of the managers we had, I was often put running shifts over the same people that I'd hated working under, and I actually made them do some work for once.
If you find out how to stop liking someone, please let me know.
and i don't know about emotions-i do have the ability to stifle them when i need to. this is sometimes good and sometimes bad i guess....
ps:you are so sweet,since my journal is more often than not,a big ole' bore!!!