taban

I am in a rut; to say the least.

I had these grand plans to go take over Belarus.
(Ok not take over; but you know...)

Monday at practice I got a concussion ugh.. no fun.. well then my coaches decided to take me off of the Belarus tour.

I really shouldn't be overly pissed. Because it does make sense after what happened w/ my staph infection and now this. I haven't been on the mat long enough to be ready for such a strong international tournament.

So they are sending me to Missouri instead I have to find the money to buy ANOTHER plane ticket less then 2 weeks out

And I am waiting further test resuts from my doctor or a couple things. One being that as an elitle athlete I should be the picture of health but my cholesterol is like 241 so something is wrong (probally genetic.. time to look into Lipitor it seems) 2. My white blood cells are all fuggered up; some too high mostly too low and they are concerned. 3. I had some other tests come back retarded; so I have to go get a biopsy to make sure things aren't SUPER retarded.

Which reminds me... if they really don't think it's something terribly tragic like cancer then why on Earth are they all in a rush to get me back into the office. And why don't they just tell me its more testing; why use the word biopsy... that seems like a bad word to me.

I'm gonna go pout now

But I still love all you guys

kisses
Taban