It suck that the older you get the harder it is to make friends. I don't really have any friends. I work with a couple people that I sometimes go to lunch or dinner after work, but thats about it. I don't really hear from my co-workers on the weekends. So, I spend most of my nights and weekends alone with no one to talk to or hang out with. When I'm home, on a typical night I will either read a book or watch some Netflix. I hate going out to eat by myself, so I will typically eat at home alone. If I do go to a restaurant I will get the food to go. I always feel like an idiot sitting at a table or bar by myself. Some nights I over analyze everything in my life. I think about why I don't have any friends or how am I going to get a girlfriend if I can't get someone to be my friend. I hate those nights they are the worst. When I have one of those nights when I over analyze my life it typically ruins my whole week. I will stay in that debunked mood for a week or so and then it starts all over. This has becomes an endless cycle of my life.
amelinda:
I completely understand this. I have people I see, but that doesnt really count as hanging out or whatever. Like I might work with them, or have practice with them, but are we really friends?
syclonefx:
Yeah, I think the hardest thing to deal with sometimes thinking if they are your friend or not. Especially if you see them as your friend but you doubt they feel the same way.