My grandmother just passed away. From lung cancer to those who haven't been reading my blogs. Things just happened so fast. I mean she's had a cough for years I just never really wanted to think about it. She started losing weight the middle of last year. She was always small I didn't really notice until she gave me a hug at Christmas.
Other than the weight thing she was normal at Christmas. January came and went. The beginning of February the doctor said she had pneumonia and ran some tests. The 13th was when she was officially diagnosed and here it is a month to the day and she's gone.
Downhill so quickly. It was horrible to see her like that. Christmas was our last traditional family dinner. My family went down to their house 2 weeks ago and my mom made beef stew. Gram barely said anything at dinner. The last thing my gram said to me at the table was " is this your bowl or just the bowl for the dumplings?" The bowl was full of dumplings. I just did my smartass smile and answered " I was thinking of eating them all but I can share." I just wanted to keep everything as normal as possible. That night before I left I told her that I loved her. Little did I know it would be the last time she'd be able to respond with an I love you too.
The way I saw her in the hospital and then at the nursing home is something I wish I could forget, but, I'm sure it will be with me forever. I really don't know what to say right now.
My Grandma will be deeply missed by everyone who knew her. I'm afraid to see my Grandfather..seeing him cry might be the thing to break me.
I love you Grandma. I'll remember all the advice you ever gave me. Rest in Peace.