Spending another night in Merrimac. I went to the hospital today to see my grandmother. She has her color back but she is still confused and doesn't really talk. She was asleep most of the time I was there but she looked comfortable so I didn't want to bother her. She isn't going to get chemo. After they get a bladder infection under control they are probably going to send her home with palliative care. It's still hard to believe how bad things have gotten in a month. I'm just trying to be there for my family. I'm usually good at hiding my emotions. I feel like they all think I'm weird for not showing emotions like they do. I just have a different way of dealing with feelings.
Hope everyone is having a good night.