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Thursday Jul 03, 2003

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I'm grateful for your sympathy and good wishes. But I'm not so sure if I really want to get over this, again. I did it in similar situations many times now and it always leaves me less the person I used to be. I'm now just a twisted and perverted version of my former self.

I lost all my faith in me and the world around me. I lost all my dreams but the one to be loved someday. And I know that this will remain a dream forever. So, without any hope left and no vision how to live my life without it, I really don't know.

Maybe it's just better to die for a dream that couldn't come true than to live on in a grey and miserable world. Thats what classic tragedies are made of, isnt it?
sakita:
you know that you are a fighter, and it doesnt have to take anything from you, you can take things from it. when the world comes crashing down, sometimes you have to realize that you are one you need to love. sweetie ive been there. when i read that i couldnt message right away because I have been there..and you know what? i know it hurts....
take your time but dont TAKE your time. if you catch my drift.
it is not worth dying for a dream, because i've learned from experience dreams are often flawed and not what i wanted in the first place.
classic tragedies be damned.
i dont like tragedies.

and im still here any time you need someone to talk to.
take care for pete's sakes.

lizbeth
Jul 3, 2003

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