In the past few days, i've come to understand why, in my entire life, i've never once looked in the mirror, or looked at a photo of myself, and felt like the person I was looking at was me. I suffer from Body Dysphoria. I look in the mirror and there is a stranger looking back, there are good days where I feel like that stranger is very pretty, and there are bad days when I feel like I want to break every mirror, destroy ever photo, erase all evidence of that stranger existing. Liam is very supportive, telling me to change what ever it is about myself that I need to to make this body bearable, but how do you know what and how to change when all my life i've been force fed some lie about being insecure because "only trans people have dysphoria"? I've never thought to change myself because all my life everyone's answer to my problem was, "realize your beauty, don't compare yourself to others, don't let society tell you that you aren't pretty." So now where do I go from here? I can pin point the parts of ny face and body that feel foreign, I can make a list of the things I want to change, but how do I fix them, when the face I think I have, the face I want is over shadowed by a stranger and the overwhelming weight of peoples voices screaming that changing is bad because I'm beautiful? I don't feel beautiful, I don't see what they see, changing is making my body and my face okay for me, but how do I make it okay for them too?
