sweetscarling

That being said lets move on to the next thought.

Currently reading 4 or 5 different books. I like reading several books at one time... each fills some specific need or desire and is instantly gratifying.

Here is a passage that poked out at me... thought I would like to share it with you. I think I will start doing this from now on...sharing passages with you... maybe we can share some interesting vocab words too... I need to bone up on it .. Lately I find myself struggling to find words that communicate very specific feelings thoughts and ideas. It gets a bit frustrating.. got any good words?

" Alice was not a bit hurt, and she jumped on to her feet in a moment:

she looked up, but it was all dark overhead: before her was another long passage, and the White Rabbit was still in sight, hurrying down it. There was not a moment to be lost:

Away went Alice like the wind, and was just in time to hear it say, as it turned the corner,

"Oh my ears and whiskers, how late it's getting!"

side bar, I just remembered something ... one grey day a long time ago, I was still very young at the time, my father and I were driving along on our way from his house to my grandmas.

We were passing by the local mausoleum, on our left.

I, being ever curious and ever the voyeur, couldn't help but ogle the door, which was, for some reason, slightly ajar...

My father noticed my rubber necking and wide eyed gestures,( stern about the mouth as always). He made quick eye contact with me and I noticed he had a stunned and somewhat disturbed look on his face. Before I could respond to his facial expression, he blurted out, hardly in the form of a question: why do you have this FIXATION with DEATH! ?

Not too sure what was said after that. The words "morbid" and "just like your mother"do come to mind. but the thing that I recall in great detail is how I felt at the time.

I slumped down in the passenger seat, turned my attention to the raindrops pelting the window and the street, our destination, just ahead.

I felt horribly guilty and ashamed. I felt there was something terribly wrong with me.

I guess I have been mulling over the death thing quite a lot this week. Not so much in a depressed way more like an inquisitive, angry and hopeful way.

I suppose birthdays & mortality do go hand in hand.

I fucking hate birthdays.

Cheers,
PinkAddiCtiOn

LATER TODAY...

IRONY AND THE DOG THAT BIT ME

8 seconds after I finished the above journal entry I received an email from RN

here are its contents...a chain letter she sent with a fwd list a mile long preceding the main message.. I have removed them for you... She wrote nothing else just this


You will Have Good Luck For Two Years if you send
this to 8 people or more and if this is sent back to
you then you are a true friend......

Hope you can
send the green dog back to ME!
Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second
or Two

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because
of who I am when I am with you..

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one
who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you
want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with
all they have.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you
never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one
person you may be the world.

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't
willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people
before meeting the right one, so that when we finally
meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it
happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you
so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just
be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you
are before you try and know someone else and expect
them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you!
least expect them to.

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

True friends: How many people actually have 8 true
friends?

Hardly anyone I know ! But some of us have all right
friends and good friends!!!

You have been Tagged by the Green Dog!
-END OF LETTER

8 minutes after reading this email I put the leashes on my 2 boys and off we went for our morning jaunt.

walking around my block, my 2 dogs and I spot a jack russell terrier. He shoots out from the near by lawn like lightning and proceeds to assault me and my 2 boys.

8 minutes I struggled, kicked, punched, bellowed and wrestled with this dog.He would not let go. He did not care that I was beating the shit out of him. Some neighbors heard my screams and called the police. They would not come near to help, afraid that the crazed dog would turn his mania to them.

like this for 8 minutes we went at it.

When the police rolled up they found me still in the midst of a brawl with a half possesed dog mangling two 2lb malteses and one 95 lb woman strewn about on the side walk... They maced the dog, he still would not leave my boys and I, they kicked him in the face and belly, used their noose like contraption and finally got him to submit.

One of the officers raced me and my boys to the animal hospital covered in shit, blood, and vomit no artistic lisence no editorializing, no need to do that here.

1500.00 dollars, 1 police report, and several stitches later.. here I sit shaking like shit and letting go here with you


..going to go pick up my boys in about 8 minutes.

Friday the 13th, the chain letter from the "green dog", death and mortality..

good thing I am not superstitious

p