Updates: RN
I received an email from RN. He said that he loves me, misses me, wants to see me and that I should come by his new place asap. So, he left a phone number, asked me to call to confirm, we were suppose to meet up last night, It turns out the phone number was the same old cell number I already had. ....I called and left a message anyway.
... I have yet to receive a call or email from him (no new phone# given, no home address either)
He is not ready, and I am fine with this fact. The reason I am OK with this now and I was not OK with it before is because I didn't understand how someone could love you so much and then just fall off the face of the earth..
But I finally figured it out.
Humans that don't love themselves are not fully capable of loving others. They can't get past there own skin, are completely self centered and always end up smashing into their own reflection.
I am able to love her from a far without needing, hoping or even wanting, her love in return. I AM fully capable of this kind of love, because I understand that she is not.
yes, SHEeeee
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