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The Taco Bell next to my house got shut down this past week - it was really sad because well... it's where I hung out throughout everything in my teenage years. Plus, I haven't paid for dinner in almost two years, free burritos for liiiiiife. Now what? I'm a little lost

I deleted my facebook/twitter/tumblr/skype last night! My phone's been off for a month or so as well. A good friend - my best friend rather - did something small and insignificant to upset me but then I spent hours thinking about how people use me and mistreat me and got really sad, and decided it was time to disappear and focus on me.

Upon seeing my ex again, after he spent many months missing, he was immediately able to tell me what I'm doing wrong and why I'm so happy. He was able to tell me straight up that people are using me and that I've never really lived.. for myself. And I took that as initiative to start doing so. So here I am. Alone but by choice.

I was alone for a six month or so period this past winter, it definitely made me stronger but angrier, more independent but less trusting. We'll see how things go now. Time to focus on me and my future for once. I'm excited. I should have done this at the start of summer - when it was warm out - because nights are getting cold and I don't own any pants/sweaters/blankets and no one to borrow from and no money coming in anymore. I'll figure it out