suttin

Okay so, I'm in a super bad mood right now. I just got in a huge fight with my boyfriend or "ex boyfriend" now...
We are just not on the same page about anything any more. I feel like I've grown into the type of person who would benifit more from an open relationship or more of an open type of relationship. Relationships make 2 people into 1 person, and I just want to be my own person, I don't like having to answer to anyone or not do something cause the person I'm in a relationship doesn't want me too! Now, I would never cheat, if I have entered a relationship on the terms of being soley with that person that's the way it will be. However, I am very flirtatious but I know my boundaries and I don't see the harm in looking nor do I get upset about flirting or looking, I'm fair and believe in a two way street. I just don't think my "boyfriend" or "ex boyfriend" or whatever he is, can be this way with me. I guess the bottom line is I'm not really sure if I want to be in a relationship that has too many boundaries at this point in my life. I'm not saying I never want it, I just don't know if I want that right now. I don't know if any of you can relate or understand where I'm coming from...?
I'm feeling pretty down right now...
Some of the things he said to me weren't very nice and kind of brought me down... I don't usually cry but I'm feeling pretty emotional like I might even shed a tear.

At least I have my little muffin to cheer me up