susannahjoy

*yawn*

ok so yeah. i got tired of being a fox. i think my face looks silly in my new profile pic, but my body looks awesome, especialyl my boobs (i love that bra), and my lovely collar bones, so i'm putting it up anyway.
just cuz i can mostly.

so yeah. i was being all "responsible" and did my homework early. now i have an how before class and i'm fucking bored. i should've waited. grrs.

my kitten is driving me crazy. ugh. why does she have to attack my fingers? why? does she not understand that her claws and her teeth hurt when they draw blood? i dunno about you, but i prefer it when my blood is inside my body, or maybe being licked by some really hot guy. hmm...

*daydreaming*

ahem, ok yeah enough of that. i dont want to get all "distracted" before class.

tomorrow i'm supposed to meet some guy from hotornot. i know, i'm a loser like that. get over it.
the problem is that i've talked to him on the phone and he annoys me. a lot. oh my god. the guy is a fucking retard. on the phone at least. maybe he's better in person though. i hope. either way, i'm gonna ask cute boy from poly sci if he wants to help me out and be there so at least there will be someone there who i like. the class ends on thursday too, so i'd better get this whole thing going.

and we're not even going to talk about my midterm. i know, most people would think that a 91 is good, but, well, i dont, so i'm not even going to mention it.



ok then.

i'd make some dinner, but for lunch i had a bunch of pizza, and well, i think i've already passed my calorie intake for the day, so i dont think i'll eat anything else. unless i start to get all dizzy again. i hate that. damn you hypoglycemia or however you spell that! damn you!

chance still hasnt called me. it's been about 2 weeks, so i figure he'll call in another couple of days. my sorority has called yet either. i'm very annoyed about that. i would so love to be in a sorority. really, i would. but i want to be in one that actualyl seems to give a damn about me, you know? i'm joining one to make some new friends and it's been an entire quarter and half the summer and i haven't made any yet. args! maybe it's my fault for not calling them more often or something? i just feel like i'm constantly calling people and no one ever calls back which makes me think that just maybe they dont want to talk to me. that's what happened with andrew anyway. when i finally did get a hold of him after 2 weeks he said that he had been avoiding me. what if everyone's doing that?

life is too fucking complicated.

me and my sister in law lacey were talking about friends and stuff a couple days ago. she was talking about how she has a couple friends that she doesnt really like because they get all upset when she cant see them for a few weeks and how it drives her crazy but they dont have any other friends so she feels sorry for them and occasionally calls them back. she was totalyl describing me. it made me feel bad. she didnt know though, so i didnt mention it to her. *sigh* i'm trying really hard not to be needy or anything, but there's such a fine line between being too needy and too eager and not showing enough interest in starting a friendship. that's something i've never mastered. i dont know how people do it.

anyway, it's not actually time for class yet, but i think i'm just gonna leave now anyway. i'll get some gas and then wander around campus. i like walking around campus, even though it's really hot. meh. oh well.

i hope you are all having a lovely evening! *many 's*