susannahjoy

i've been here for awhile, but i think a real introduction is in order. my name is susannah, although i sometimes go by aspen. kinda depends on my mood. i'm interested in pretty much everything. science, humanities, sports, music, art, all that. i am trying to get into the medical field however i can, right now just getting my paramedic lisence, and then hopefully moving on to surgery. i've lived in ca most of my life, expect for what i went to school in nv, and when i went to school in tn. i'm 20 years old. 2 older brothers, one younger sister. my oldest brother is married. i think i'm pretty smart, well, like, when it comes to knowing things and iq and all that. when it comes to myself i can be pretty dumb. i have a pretty low view of myself so i tend to do stupid things because of that. like not eat. or cut myself. i'm very impulsive. i get shy around people i'm not really familiar with, which is too bad cuz it makes it hard to make friends. i sped way too much time online. i adore my dog (dakotah, he's an alaskan malamute, NOT a husky). i like both girls and guys, although i've never actually been with a girl before, and i have very limited experience with guys. i was raised christian and although i dont believe in that anymore, it's still a part of me. umm.... i read a lot. i do puzzles a lot. i guess that's about it. i really dont have much of a life.