susannahjoy

my car broke down. isnt that fun. so i called my 'best friend' left a message, then realized how silly that was and called my brother. my 'friend' still haven't bothered to call me back. i did get any sleep at all last night cuz i had to crash at my brother's couch, so i'm totally exhausted, which is good cuz i'm really depresseda dn just want to sleep for a hours, days, years, whatever. this is all such bullshit. and it really sux cuz i have a hard day so i write about in here. i dont actually talk to anyone about it cuz no one cares. there's no one here. i cant even talk to my parents cuz they went out for dinner without me. what a great way to encourage the anorexic to eat. actually, i was going to make some soup, but then i got the bowl out and there's a dead spider in it. i'm a little terrified of spiders. so then i dropped it and screamed and my dogs came running and i jsut dont feel like eating anymore. or anythign else for htat matter. although taking some asprin or something might be good, my head relly hurts. fuck it all.

i used to be loved. now i'm just hated.