susa62

I am contempating a tattoo for my left wrist that says, "TRUST NO ONE" my new motto, misson statement whatever the fuck. just a little personal reminder.

It's a me issue, my trusting, kind and forgiving to be crapped on again nature.

I am in an awful mood, which is unusal for me. I said "fuck them" while I was explaining something to my mom and she laughed. I asked her why that was funny and she said, she has never heard me use that expression regarding a person or situation, and it's good to see that I am not going to be so quick to forgive and forget after i get burned. It feels so strange to be really angry and hold a grudge, and mean it.

I guess I am moving through the stages of grieving. I cried last weekend over the loss of my trust , I truly mourned it as if there was a death. It is a tangible, a painful, and a profound loss. And i believe hallmark needs to market a "condolenses over the death of your trust" card. It happens more than we care to admit. Then I became angry and I have been stuck there for a while, but at least it helped me to stop crying and is helping me move forward. I have also learned who the people are that I can lean on and trust, and that is equally as important as knowing, to trust no one.