Sunday Oct 28, 2007

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hello my George Washngtons and Betsy Rosses,

so this is whats going on in my life. first the lame then the good

i had chemo for the first time and it was terrifying, i was scared and lonely and stressed and wanted my mom.

i am finally feeling like this is real and it scares me, i am so overwhelmed by being so worn out and ill all the time. i feel lost about having to keep track of what i eat and what i do. i am worried about my fertility and my future and my fiance and my hair. i feel so vain, and guilty for feeling like loosing my hair would be a big deal.

now some fun news

i now live in Philadelphia!!! and so far i love it. I had missed living in a real city. There are these weird seed pods here that grow on all the public trees, when you step on them they smell gross, like feta cheese. but it is a pleasant gross.

i am getting married in a week and a half!! i am so excited and so in love

Its 11:39 still in my hello kitty PJs, i haven't left the house.

In my new building i have a super cute neighbor with a mohawk, i may try to get her to be an SG

Despite being sick i am feeling like its time to buy me some make-up and perfume. i want to smell womanly and glamorous



i am thinking about Doctor Who, its getting close to december!! and that means another episode! i freackin' love The Doctor!! but i am worried about the new girl on the show, the redhead.

She is super annoying, but i am told that she is very popular in england. will she get better? i hope so

i am looking forward to getting my house together, and to spending the rest of my time on the east coast in my pretty new place!!



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xrinti:
been afk, so missed your first announcement. so sorry to hear it. i've spent more hours than i care to count in hospitals, so i know at least a part of what you're headed through. can't comment on first run movies (haven't seen any of them), but i can point you at a crapload of good rentals. of course, if you're near a megaplex with all the free movies you can see and hours between apts, you'll probably see everything they've got.

gratz on the marriage. i had my 10th anniversary on 10/25, and i'd marry her again today without thinking about it. here's hoping that you enjoy it at least as much.

if there's anything that can be done to give you a hand from 500 miles away, lemme know.

x
productiondiva:
I have some fun suprisy things to keep you company during chemo. Send me your post address and I will post them!

You are strong and brave and beautiful. Remember that. But I feel you on the sick of being tired and sick part. It never goes away. But the good news is you get better at dealing. I took my security blanket to treatments since I went through it alone... I thought the nurses would laugh but they all thought it was brilliant. Bring something comforting with you.

I am getting married in 6 days! Eeep! What day are you guys getting hitched? Are you ready????

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