hello my George Washngtons and Betsy Rosses,
so this is whats going on in my life. first the lame then the good
i had chemo for the first time and it was terrifying, i was scared and lonely and stressed and wanted my mom.
i am finally feeling like this is real and it scares me, i am so overwhelmed by being so worn out and ill all the time. i feel lost about having to keep track of what i eat and what i do. i am worried about my fertility and my future and my fiance and my hair. i feel so vain, and guilty for feeling like loosing my hair would be a big deal.
now some fun news
i now live in Philadelphia!!! and so far i love it. I had missed living in a real city. There are these weird seed pods here that grow on all the public trees, when you step on them they smell gross, like feta cheese. but it is a pleasant gross.
i am getting married in a week and a half!! i am so excited and so in love
Its 11:39 still in my hello kitty PJs, i haven't left the house.
In my new building i have a super cute neighbor with a mohawk, i may try to get her to be an SG
Despite being sick i am feeling like its time to buy me some make-up and perfume. i want to smell womanly and glamorous
i am thinking about Doctor Who, its getting close to december!! and that means another episode! i freackin' love The Doctor!! but i am worried about the new girl on the show, the redhead.
She is super annoying, but i am told that she is very popular in england. will she get better? i hope so
i am looking forward to getting my house together, and to spending the rest of my time on the east coast in my pretty new place!!
so this is whats going on in my life. first the lame then the good
i had chemo for the first time and it was terrifying, i was scared and lonely and stressed and wanted my mom.
i am finally feeling like this is real and it scares me, i am so overwhelmed by being so worn out and ill all the time. i feel lost about having to keep track of what i eat and what i do. i am worried about my fertility and my future and my fiance and my hair. i feel so vain, and guilty for feeling like loosing my hair would be a big deal.
now some fun news
i now live in Philadelphia!!! and so far i love it. I had missed living in a real city. There are these weird seed pods here that grow on all the public trees, when you step on them they smell gross, like feta cheese. but it is a pleasant gross.
i am getting married in a week and a half!! i am so excited and so in love
Its 11:39 still in my hello kitty PJs, i haven't left the house.
In my new building i have a super cute neighbor with a mohawk, i may try to get her to be an SG
Despite being sick i am feeling like its time to buy me some make-up and perfume. i want to smell womanly and glamorous
i am thinking about Doctor Who, its getting close to december!! and that means another episode! i freackin' love The Doctor!! but i am worried about the new girl on the show, the redhead.
She is super annoying, but i am told that she is very popular in england. will she get better? i hope so
i am looking forward to getting my house together, and to spending the rest of my time on the east coast in my pretty new place!!
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gratz on the marriage. i had my 10th anniversary on 10/25, and i'd marry her again today without thinking about it. here's hoping that you enjoy it at least as much.
if there's anything that can be done to give you a hand from 500 miles away, lemme know.
x
You are strong and brave and beautiful. Remember that. But I feel you on the sick of being tired and sick part. It never goes away. But the good news is you get better at dealing. I took my security blanket to treatments since I went through it alone... I thought the nurses would laugh but they all thought it was brilliant. Bring something comforting with you.
I am getting married in 6 days! Eeep! What day are you guys getting hitched? Are you ready????