superficial

it's so disgustingly cold here that i don't want to leave my house.

i know you're all thinking: wah, wah, wah... poor superficial. so, i'll stop complaining about the cold now. (i'll complain about something else)

today i tried not to think about much of anything... of course when you try not to think... you end up just thinking about other things... things that you forgot were there to think about.

the main thing i was trying not to think about:

i found out that my aunt has emphysema. i didn't like her much right now... but, i still wouldn't wish that on anyone... though it's her own fault, it still makes me sad.

a secondary thing:

i miss my friends... but they always did like her better for some reason. i hated having to be the one to call them all the time... so, i stopped calling... and now i'm down to 2 friends here... 'cause they actually call me sometimes, too!

blah... i want it to be warm out... so, that i feel like going out and doing things to keep my mind off of shit. (oops, i'm complaining about the cold again, aren't i?)

i love you all and hope you're all doing well.