hmmm... what to say about today?
well, it wasn't a bad day... i just keep going over everything in my head. i know what i want to say... but does anyone want to listen? i'm hoping one person in particular will want to talk to me, so at least i can honestly know where i stand.
i want to move on, but i need to make sure this is really what she wants... i don't want her coming back years from now re-fucking (skull-fucking?!?)up my life... i want it all done and settled right now.
i was never the selfish one, though... so, i'll probably just go to hell like she told me to (not in those exact words).
i'm really feeling better about things and life in general... but i really just need either closure or hope on this one thing... before i can really decide what i'm doing with the rest of my life.
in other news: i'm still disliking the site... it makes me angry, in a way that only the color pink can do...
well, it wasn't a bad day... i just keep going over everything in my head. i know what i want to say... but does anyone want to listen? i'm hoping one person in particular will want to talk to me, so at least i can honestly know where i stand.
i want to move on, but i need to make sure this is really what she wants... i don't want her coming back years from now re-fucking (skull-fucking?!?)up my life... i want it all done and settled right now.
i was never the selfish one, though... so, i'll probably just go to hell like she told me to (not in those exact words).
i'm really feeling better about things and life in general... but i really just need either closure or hope on this one thing... before i can really decide what i'm doing with the rest of my life.
in other news: i'm still disliking the site... it makes me angry, in a way that only the color pink can do...
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I wish for you that you would focus more on what you want now with all that she has put you through. You sound as if she said "come back", you'd drop everything and do it. I hope this is not the case. From what I know of you so far, you deserve no one less than a 100% loving person in your life. You should be treated with respect and caring.
I'll never understand why all the "good" men are taken / under the spell of women who do not appreciate them. Big hugs to you. I just want you to be happy. I'm here if you ever want to talk.
Im really happy with the time that we did have to talk....Thanks for putting up with my silly self. Hope to talk soon....
Love(In that Non-In-Love-Way) hahaha
Lindsey