Saturday Sep 20, 2003

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i wrote this long, totally inspired journal after talking to my sister, and it never showed up... and now, i can't rewrite what i wrote...

don't you hate that?

anyway, the general idea was that once you've hit rock bottom, there's nowhere to go but back up. that's where i'm at right now... no expectations, no pressure, just life... i love her still, but maybe it wasn't as good for me as i always thought it was... forever is a long time to commit to a person, especially since people change so much... especially at our ages.

she held me back without realizing, and i didn't care, i wanted to do whatever i could just to spend time with her... shortsightedness, i guess you could say... but i did picture a future with her i guess she just didn't see the same picture.

i can't fault her for that... i will move on.
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drunkpunk:
That has happened to me so many times, it sucks. What really pisses me off aswell about writing a long journal entry that goes missing, is when you've spent a lot of extra time fucking about putting links in to pics or different url's etc mad. Thats why i now get into the habbit of right clicking, highlighting all the text, and copying to clipboard before i hit that damn submit button! I still sometimes frget though if i'm dead excited and really keen to update my journal with something blush

Anyway, good luck and all the best mate. Life's a bitch sometimes but you gotta be strong.
audio:
i just came by to see if you were doing any better than the other day.

the last thing i want to give is advice because its useless, instead ill give my experience.

those moments when you are at rock bottom are the best. they are the truest forms of who we are. we have nothing to lose and therefore no fear in losing anything.

love wouldnt mean so much if it didnt tear your heart out every once in a while, yet the wonderful thing about it is its amazing regenerating power. oh christ, i better stop, im starting to sound like oprah.

hey, if you ever need to be cheered up you can always come to me wink

p.s. heres a great pick up line to cheer you up :

-are you jamaican??

cause jamaican me crazy!! hehee

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