superfangirl

so i realize why i am so into suicide girls.

because i want to be one. i want to be one of the crazy sexy cool girl. I am the very uncool. I look like an awkward office geek most of the time because yeah, i try to dress all conservative for work and i work 5 days a week. and when it comes to school i am a roll out of bed and throw on a t-shirt and jeans type. i looked through my closet and found that i really don't have many 'cool' clothes.

i admire the girls on the site because i wish i could be as free of them. the coolest things i own may very well be my suicide girl shirts.

i just can't pull off the outfits these girls pull off. i worry too much. i can't get tattooed because i made a promise to my rents (hey, they are paying for college and helping me out with my cali summer!! i respect them damn it!) and i honestly am not into too many piercings. Besides, i heal slow and don't look good with metal in me.

i am not cool. i am glittery and rather uncool. i like me, but i wish i was cooler.

so that's why i joined SG. To try and find more of me that is 'cool'. because damn it i think the SG girls are amazing role models.

Now i just have to save up some cash and save up some guts and makeover myself all cooool like.