sugarpill

am very exciting about the Live Burlesque Tour. woot, woot.

if i see a problem, no one else sees it as a problem. if i see something wrong, no one else sees is that way. if i'm unhappy, it's not because of anything anyone else has done because it's all in my head. it's all in my head. it's all in my head.

everything that's bad in my life is my own fault. my job sucked, but that was my fault, and they were going to fire me so i quit. any faults that i find in my relationships are my fault, they're indicative of my unhappiness with the rest of my life. so basically, it's all my fault, i'm the only one with the problem, it's all...
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monday. fucking dull weekend. libido has gone into hiding again. which is good, i guess, because it's not like anybody needs it.

some new sketches in "my pics" ... it's hard to focus. hard to concentrate and put it all down. instead of taking one path, i will take all of them very slowly. instead of telling one story, i will tell all of them, overlapping and impossible to distinguish one from another.

friday. i'm supposed to be in love, aren't i?

i wanted to get out. it's all cloudy and windy here, and i wanted to be out in it. i packed up my little bag (iPod, digicam, etc) and drove around. i had a few places in mind but i was just wandering and never ended up in any of those places. then i found this...
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i would write a big essay about the absolute stupidity of monogamous relationships, but nobody would read it.

it's nice to get my ass out of bed in the morning and actually DO stuff. i uploaded some new material to my webpage, which has been down for mysterious reasons all weekend. i started dinner, which has to cook for 6 hours. i went to the bank, walked around with my iPod and felt like a badass, and spent some time outside reading (Oscar...
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there is no passion in this relationship anymore. i feel like it's my fault, but i know that i'm only partly responsible. it's very depressing.

wednesday. supposedly the middle of the week and yet i'm just getting started.

i'm so horny it's like i'm dying.

when i click on my "Friend Of" tab i get two names. i don't know either of those people, i've never had any communication with them, and neither of them are active... who /are/ these people?

so it's friday. i feel like making a big entry, even though nobody will read it, just because it's friday and ... and today feels full-to-bursting. i actually got...
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i quit my job. yay me.