This song came on the radio as I was driving back from a great afternoon with my son. Delilah comes on the radio and announces this song. The sky was a cloudless clear blue. The mountainous horizon encircled us outside the miles and miles of farmland. And me and my kid held hands and serenaded, "Have I told you lately that I love you? Have I told you there's no one else above you?..." It was an amazing day filled with so many moments of true blissful happiness. I quit my job last week and I would expect to be panicking by this point but I feel so at peace with so many things. I feel like I finally learned how to enjoy a moment for what it is. To look at the pleasure of life in the same instant I'm experiencing the warm, fuzzy feelings of this beautiful world. I love it. I love that I have somehow transitioned over the years, through traumas and betrayals, from a neurotic panic attack pushing constantly to move through the next thing that had to get done and checking it off my list without ever noticing the beauty of it...to a sometimes calm, relaxed, blessed woman who is able to spot the special moments as they come. This world is amazing. I am lucky to be a mom. I am lucky to have the friends that I have. I feel today, that I can and will conquer anything life throws at me. And for the first time in years, I feel I am worthy of friends and family and forgiveness and love and smiles and kindness. And I choose to give that back to the world as well.
