stuzzy

When you're deprived of sleep I've noticed the world becomes surreal. Everything is muted. The colors, the sounds, your reactions, everything. The world moves in slow motion, including yourself.

Sometimes, when I'm sleep deprived I think someone could do something to me. Like burn my car up or chop my hand off and I'd just look at it with an expressionless face and say "Oh, you chopped my hand off. I guess I should see a doctor." or "Oh, my car is burning up. I'm going to need a new one now." in a very monotone, detached voice. Detached is the word I'm looking for here. When I'm deprived of sleep I feel very detached from everything. It's a very interesting feeling. It's not at all like any drug I've ever tried.

I'm not sleep deprived now though. No, this is just a general observation I'm making here for my own amusement... and yours as well I suppose. Maybe because even though i'm not deprived of sleep but yet I feel very detached from things. Unconnected and it reminds me of that. And yet here I am.

I never wanted to be someone who had to think about work a lot when I wasn't working. Now it appears like that's going to happen to me. I'm probably going to get paid a good bit of money though, more than I've ever made before. Yay me right? Yeah... I have mixed feelings about that. I try not to take on too much responsibility because I take it pretty seriously. Too seriously perhaps. But anyway, I'm going to have a good weekend.