stina

So, today is thursday. I wroked, and actually did tattoos and made money, whew. ha..

I went on myspace.. and I had a message from a girl i havent seen in like a year. I was never really friends with her. She knew my X, she knew a lot of my friends and my brief experiences proved to be a little uncomfortable. But she said hi. It was kinda wierd.. since we've met like 30 times and shes never once said hi to me before. I wasnt sure if she just forgot, or maybe she didnt care? or maybe I was projecting a tuff image. (which in reality I guess a lot of people have told me im intimidating, I jsut cant see her as being intimidated).. well I went on her myspace page, then went into her diary and read some of it. Just out of spare time....
She was talking about a lot of stuff that normal people think about. How she wants to figure out her life. Shes afraid of failing, she always is worried about the future and never living in the present, until its the past. All pretty normal thoughts.. But I couldnt help thinking.. "cut it out" i wish everyone would stop worrying. Everyone is making up these wishes, and big plans for the future.. all these things.. setting themselves up for possible failure. I just dont understand why people just dont live.. I mean live. Like do the things you want and not care what others will think.. not worry about what will happen.. because most likely, you're gonna have so many obsticles, that by the time you are older... whatever plan you used to have will be changed. We all change. Thats what happens. We all have visions, we all are constantly changing due to our surroundings. Keep the photos, look at them and laugh, remind yourself of the love you once held, then think about the bad things going on at the same time and be grateful. Then close the book and live your life. I cant understand how people could try and plan out thier lives.. sometimes it just falls into place, sometimes you have to push it a little.. but Its hard for me to understand the worrying about the future. Hell, things will work out. Everypath you take will lead you to 10 more paths.. your options are unlimited.. We all live long lives and what we forget is that if we DONT plan our whole lifes on the calendar... we can enjoy more of these long lives. Instead of having to work at a job you hate.. you can do something else. Who cares if you're 40 and starting over, youve got another 40 plus years possibly ahead. I tattooed an old lady who was 80 one time.. she was going skydiving the next week. It really inspired me. I want to be her when I grow old. *sigh* anyway...

I just ate some pizza. No cheese with lots of yummy veggies. I wish I had more. But later, Friday and I are going to budda's to eat some vegan Lomein and pick up Lars from the bus station. I think Friday is going to dress like a bunny hahaha.. shes fucking hillarious. Friday's possibly the funniest person I know. Granted, it could be because we have spent almost every day together as best friends for what.. 7 years now? so we have the same sense of humor. We love each other's moms and we share the trouble we get into. We're close. But she has all these crazy Ideas that she not only comes up with, but also goes through with. Shes got some guts.. but they are fucking amazingly hillarious ideas. Like the times she decided she didnt want a boyfriend. So she carried her body pillow around with her and called him "brad" after a while people started to ask around about this "brad" (not realizing it was her pillow) and a few people even said stuff like "whos this brad guy i hear friday is with?" haha.. Well tonight, she's dressing like a bunny and waiting on the side of the road to pick up lars in downtown boston. hahaha I cant wait. A few weeks ago Lars left his wallet in our house.. so we grabbed out his Id cards, jammed them in our butt cracks and took pictures, then put the picture in the wallet and mailed the wallet to him. haha.. he was slightly suprised

We are watching the golden girls. For fucking serious. Ellen, the shops new owner loves it.. haha.. fucking rose.