stillifegaijin

look at you getting all the love.....heh heh

i actually love the title. today. let me stew and we'll put it to the test.

bracket. relationships with us (pez, jerm) have more meaning in themselves, than most people have for their own lives.

we feel and read into everything, instead of not bothering to look past the haze that most people exist in every day. it's so much harder and that's why we do it to ourselves, to see who can make it through with us. adn if we can make it through ourselves.

so far there haven't been any contenders who could endure the magnifying glass of self-exploration and evolution. we won't /can't stop. we will die. so we'll live alone instead of die with someone who dosen't want to try to live with their eyes opened.

maybe organic lemonade makes it more healthy?.....prob not, oh well, we're gonna keep doing it anyways.

I think that we could single handedly make panty throwing popular to the other than Tom Jones crowd. It has been spoken. Set in stone.

the pain will never end, just shift to a new location. if you don't have it you won't appreciate the fact.

revel in the fact you can feel at all. that's all the power we need.

just close your eyes at everything but her silent shots. suit hot yes.

Who did you go to the SG show with? I let it slip by me. If I would have remembered earlier, I would have gotten tickets.

I am still confused about the teeth thing.

wanna go to atl in two weeks?..i'm gong to see my grandmother who dosen't have much time left for stories of better times............but...........i already have tickets for mark kozelek and iron and wine and suicidegirls at the echo, which are all happening the same week. 1/23-1/29......come!!

a holiday is only complete with burlesque abounding!! this is the basis of any complete holiday. it's quite a good thing i live around the corner from the best burlesque club in nyc! it'll give me something to put the sg shows in atl and nyc up against since i'm going to see both!! fun.fun.

today is the start of something very wonderful. i can feel it. i haven't had one mind-numbing thought or mindscream yet today! woo-hoo. let's see what happens. still freezing though, but it's awesome nontheless!

HAPPY JANUARY 10TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love you man.....

so was the black clad gift giver of dismay and pain which is what this particular holiday stands to commerate, on time with the loot? gift giving in the name of suffering helps us to lighten our own loads and to hopefully see a faint smile on the pained ones we acknowledge and love dearly.

it's 2 degrees here, l.a. rescue me.

over and out.

pez. brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

we did get it right, we lived through it, as difficult as it was. anything short of me dying i can live through after all of this. we didn't lose anything, we just had our cycles altered to see how we perform under pressure. we're all we need and life has nothing to give but more days full of shiny paths and jagged mountains. so let's see what happens.

the phone will ring and she will answer. don't make declarations to keep yourself from feeling your lowest. it's ok. we have to kill ourselves slowly to remind us to feel anythnig.

happy fucking new year to one and all! let's see what happens.

Pez! No not again! The nightmares just stopped.

Are you feeling better? What are your plans for tonight. I am gonna' kick it in the MTB. I don't think I will go out too late, just hang with a few friends and show off my new outfit!