stewd

I still have Sonia on my mind. She wrote about our little dinner and coffe encounter in her LJ. The things she said were nice. I realised how much I really like her, and how much I miss her. BUT, (there's always a "but", isn't there?) I don't know how healthy it would be to persue a relationship with her. For one thing, she's going to school and working full time. Luckily she has weekends off, but those are usually left for regrouping. Secondly, she's bi-polar, like seriously bi-polar. Thats why she stopped seeing me in the first place. She was going thru a really tough mania. She has since cycled back down and is back on ton's of meds and is seeing the doctors constantly.

Now re-read ALL of "Secondly..." and tell me how healthy that relationship would be. I really don't want to have to deal with all the baggage that comes with that. Christ I already had to when I had to fall in love with a borderline personality disorder. With BIG disassociative tendancies (that means bad cutting and shit). Ugh, I dunno. Being with her was nice, I had a great time. She is looking really good, too. What's a boy to do?