stella_marie

its cold.

really cold.

the kind of cold where i dont want to get out of bed.

just wish i had someone in it to occupy my time.

dear ryan,

the tension in our apartment is so thick right now you can cut it with a knife. i like knives. i like playing with knives. i no longer take responsibility for my actions. consider yourself warned.

stella_marie

he's my achillies heel. everytime we say its the last. and it would have been if he didnt follow me into the bathroom tonight. hes been dating this girl for 5 years. its been 6 months since he's gotten sex. he walked me home, sneaking into every nook and cranny trying to get into my pants. i told him to wait. when we got to...
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ive been trapped in my apartment since friday.
fuck the rain.
i need to escape.

fuck mac
fuck my computer
fuck whatever std is killing it



but mostly, fuck me for not being able to afford a new one

all i need right now
arms to wrap around me
legs to intertwine with mine
a chest to rest my heavy head on
a heartbeat to sing me to sleep

insomnia - Chronic inability to fall asleep or remain asleep for an adequate length of time.

i feel like ive gotten hit by a bus. im still so tired, but i cant sleep. i slept for about 6 hours last night so ive been up since 5 am. ive spent the past 31 hours in my bed, except when i was getting up every 20...
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hour 27

im sick. im tired. so tired i cant sleep. i lay in bed crying, tossing, shaking, praying to a god i dont believe in to just let me sleep. what the fuck did i ever do to deserve this


hour 29

i cant stop vomiting. im down to stomach bile. i cant get rid of the acid in my mouth no matter how...
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ok, yeah, i get it

i drank too much

head in the toilet

heart in my throat

now just fucking let me sleep