starkmadd

I hate when things get into my head and will not leave me alone. Thoughts of projects and designs and composition. . . I wake up some nights from dreams of air conditioned acrylic egg-shaped pods suspended over the desert, sleeping accommodations for the wayward traveler. Of towering 50 foot windmills above said eggs powering the machinery to satiate the needs of the nomadic visitors...
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So I rarely post anything on blog, or elsewhere anymore. However, there are some comments that I have noticed on some sets that quite frankly piss me the fuck off. For FUCK SAKE people, don't tell a girl they need to be flashin you their pussy. That is their choice. I saw somebody commenting on a girls body saying something about belly rolls. For crying...
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Moving foreward seems such a chore some days. Lately it seems any progress I acheive is taken away in short order. Every time I get closer to reaching a goal, and being happy in the way I wish it is trounced by a multitude of catastrophies beyond my controll. So I trudge foreward as best I can, making little progress it seems, trying vainly to...
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Back from my mini-vacation, and it was great! Missed out on some big sales days at work is seems, but fuck it, this was worth it. I miss her already, and cannot wait until we can be together again, even if it just for a couple days.

Not going to be around for a few days. My sweetheart is coming into town and I will be spending my time with her. So if I miss anything great or grand or otherwise super duper, oh well, more important things are coming into play.

Have fun for the next few days, and play nice all.

Awakening from a dark abyssal slumber,
Opening my eyes to the daylight once more,
Experiencing life with new wonder,
Not caring what life has in store.

Alas the darkness keeps yeilding,
Shirking and retiring into the mire,
The heart leaps forth without fearing,
Knowing a world without fear.

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For the time being, I believe I will have to refrain from posting much on the CE boards. With the election being as heated as it is, and emotions running rampant, there seems to be more lashing out than civil discussion at present time. I am all for heated debate, and respected differing of oppinion, however that is not what I have whitnessed on either...
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Had my only day off of the week killed by morons calling in to work. As it stands, I wont have a day off until late next week. Oh well, life goes on.

I am thinking I just need to go out one night and get completely shit-faced sloppy drunk. Been quite a while since I prayed to the porcain gods.

Life barrels forward, rocketing down the highway of life, and I am just alnong for the ride. It seems the harder you try to get to a certain point in your life, the more the fates intervene, slowing down any progress you make.

I am just out of a long distance relationship. She now maintains that she just wants to be friends. However, she keeps...
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Need to get out sometime. I am going nuts. Seems like all I do is work and sleep. Oh well, life goes on. Don't have the kids for the weekend, they went camping with their grandparents. So I have the house to myself for once. The question is, what am I going to do with this freedom?

I feel it falling around me, shrowding me, culling me. I feel it's cool touch, moist as a morning dew. I know it's essence, as I know my own. I know that the darkness has fallen. It is heavy, yet has no form. It is shadow, but allows me to see clearly. It is a part of me that I do not adore. It is...
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