starisea

so well read.

you are such the hottie! praise to you! heh!

(okay...a bit mushy! just wanted to give you props!)

mmmm. You have reminded me that it's the oceans energy that I need right now. thank you. Hope you are well.

Rock the Buddhism Starisea!!!

When is your trip to the seaside?
I love the seaside, I want to hear about you enjoying it.

Man...I identify so much. Trying to find some grounding, now-ing kind of a thing, anchor, or cue. Remembering I'm doing the best I can and that it's not just an "excuse," but it's true. That's all one CAN do, by definition.

What do I with negative or toxic thought habits?

Well in recent months I've been getting better and actually effective in reining in my dark mental digressions. In the best analogy I can think of, I basically get off that horse, and ride another one that's positive. I can't be certain yet, but it can be done in a healthy way, and not in a way which promotes denial or it simply being refusing to confront the source of those toxic thought habits.

Not every toxic thought has some sort of source or root you need to confront. it can just be a bad habit. I'm a Scorpio Moon, which makes me emotionally...um...intense and 'challenging' Though usually you'd never see it.

The best example is when a totally random rude act of a stranger pisses me off intensely, and it can be just a little thing like...he steps on my toe or something. Or shit customer service. And the degree of my anger and rage is totally out of all proportion to the event. Then I end up brooding. That's not some sort of signal that I'm a troubled child. It just means I've always brooded over things unecessarily. So now I catch myself in the habit, take a breath or two and change horses.

But your dealing with wanting to change yourself. And for that, you need to get used to something that I have trouble with myself. And that's learning not to take yourself too seriously. You can't change easily when there is tension, and being hard on yourself on creates tension. To make a very blah analogy, it's easier to change the shape of a ball of putty, than a ball of steel.

There's benefits to this. When you learn that trick, you stop taking other people too seriously and have much more success dealing with negative or rude people.

[Edited on Apr 09, 2004 6:09AM]

Lovely mantra. How do you go about choosing a monthly mantra? I think I should adopt that practice.

i like this prophile pic, although my favorite is another. can you guess which?

you can seduce me any time
(actually, i think that you already have)

Thanks for the lovin vibes, sweet star-is-sea

Thank you so much for the blessings, you are so sweet. I need all I can get these days. Yeah for glorious weekends!!! To you too!!

p.s. how did you know? or is it so obvious...

wonder wander wonder wander, la la la...

***squish***

lovelovesquishtoyoumydarling.

New titles, eh? Well, Lucifer is still ongoing, so you can always pick up more of that. Mike Carey also writes Hellblazer, which is decent. And if you like the Vertigo vibe, you'll probably dig Fables. Lately, I've been getting into a few titles from Oni: Love Fights, which I can't recommend high enough, written and drawn by the incomparable Andi Watson, and the Courtney Crumrin books by Ted Naifah. Terry Moore's Strangers in Paradise is one of my longtime faves also.

Saw Bowie (finally) on Monday. I was a bit under the weather, but it was pretty goddamned cool. The guy makes it look so easy.

An e-mail has just been fired off your way, m'dear! Hope it's some help but, at the very least, it features the WelnTaod origin story. Looking forward to possibly hearing the one behind 'Starisea'. And now, to go find worthy poetry to post.

Glad you're feeling good, sweetie.
Yes, spring cleaning is so great. It's almost like I'm cleaning the clutter out of my head.
Thanks for the Stari-sweet compliment.
Much love sent to you. Have a kiss.

love you baby

I shall store it somewhere deep... That way when I next walk into a record shop, I'll have something to snag rather than blank out and settle for a lackluster album. Hope your enjoying the weekend, kind friend!

starisea, that poem is so marvelous--I'll need to reread it many times! As for opening up, expanding, keep doing this. Keep asking those questions. Curiosity, yes. Press on. So good to see. My senses, they are Divine. I just need to keep exploring and opening mine. Yes, yes, yes...

I forgot. you might want to check out www.voicelessness.com. This was just recommended to me.

[Edited on Mar 25, 2004 11:31AM]

Deviant heh heh

Great poem, thanks for the grins. I hope the negative feeling that you are having pass soon, as they will i am sure. Thanks for bringing such light into my humble little life.

Much love,

yo - where is you?


love,
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Sending you beautiful, good thoughts, knowing everything is in perfect order, loved one.

I trust the party went well?
And a Ninja Tune night? You lucky girl.
I hope you have a ball.