Heh.
I think I'm still recovering from New Year's Eve. Not physically.. but there's something to eviscerating yourself emotionally in front of someone your really care about in a 10 minute timespan that kinda sticks with you. I'm glad it happened, those things needed to be said. She needed to hear them. My alcohol intake just helped me tell her with less stuttering and nervous glances and more affectionate touches and verbal flourishes. It allowed me to speak my mind without me censoring myself. I think that needed to happen.
My shift at work started off pretty melancholic. On my drive to work, my mind was on changes that I know are coming. What's next? etc. Stuff like that. I grew fearful and sorta sad. I'm still processing Adam being gone again. It was good to see him, and I don't think I really realized how much I miss him and crap like that. The more I thought about that and dealt with it the better I felt. I ended my shift feeling worlds better than I had when I started. I was dealing with things while I pushed a broom around. My body was on autopilot whilst my mind was bettering itself.
Good stuff.
I think I'm still recovering from New Year's Eve. Not physically.. but there's something to eviscerating yourself emotionally in front of someone your really care about in a 10 minute timespan that kinda sticks with you. I'm glad it happened, those things needed to be said. She needed to hear them. My alcohol intake just helped me tell her with less stuttering and nervous glances and more affectionate touches and verbal flourishes. It allowed me to speak my mind without me censoring myself. I think that needed to happen.
My shift at work started off pretty melancholic. On my drive to work, my mind was on changes that I know are coming. What's next? etc. Stuff like that. I grew fearful and sorta sad. I'm still processing Adam being gone again. It was good to see him, and I don't think I really realized how much I miss him and crap like that. The more I thought about that and dealt with it the better I felt. I ended my shift feeling worlds better than I had when I started. I was dealing with things while I pushed a broom around. My body was on autopilot whilst my mind was bettering itself.
Good stuff.
I dont know .. I feel like we are strangers. We've drifted, and I dont know if Im ready for this kind of commitment yet.
I mean, it's a big step. And this is why the Gods created the BookMark tab.
Maybe later .. when Im more comfortable and I feel like we really bonded, Ill be ready for this jump. =)