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You need new friends. Really. I hope you don't mind me writing this, but, from what you've written in your journal entries, it seems as if you only hang around people who put you down rather than lift you up; these are not "friends"...

"Coning"?. I have heard of some dumb shit, but, that takes the cake. What a stupid bitch! And Katie still considers her a friend? There's another reason to get away from her... If Katie was really your friend, she'd tell Missy to go to hell.

This is what will happen if you continue to hang around people like Katie: They'll keep doing what they do, because people like that never change, and they'll keep sucking the life out of you. Why spend any time at all worrying about things like that if you don't have to? You're friends are supposed to make you feel good; when they don't, it's time to find new ones. You seem very nice, intelligent, and considerate, so, you can find other friends. The first step is to realize that the old ones aren't worth the effort anymore.

Also: You put a after your comment about the "lucky bastard" I wrote about in one of my journal entries (the guy who had the girl all over him in his car). Why ? They seemed to be very , not . LOL. I know I would be in that situation.

[Edited on Oct 20, 2004 11:22PM]

I don't mind you saying it, I know it's true. It's just hard for me to make good friends, and when I find someone that sort of works, I don't want to lose them because even someone who functions as well as she does is hard to find. For some reason people like to shit all over me. Only emotionally, of course.

hah I was sad I'm not a lucky bastard.

[Edited on Oct 23, 2004 12:34AM]

Don't worry about not finishing high school. I have a friend who got his GED and then went to college and did fine. High school is a joke. I was a C student (barely) while in high school. I'm doing a thousand times better in college. It all has to do with motivation. If you want to go to college, try hard and do well, you will... Hell, I wish I could've skipped those wonderful years in high school and just taken a test.

If you get your GED and take the SAT's before January, can you enroll in classes for the Spring term? If so, and if you're applying for financial aid, you might want to see about starting the application process now.

About your friend's mom- If she wants to say bad things about her daughter, just ignore it. You can't change the way a middle-aged person thinks. It's not worth getting outraged over.

Such a big deal is made about how the children of the last generation or so have been either too lazy or too whiny or obsessed with sex and money or just flat-out evil... To anyone who makes this criticism, I say, look at our parents, then tell us how I we were supposed to turn out any different? June fucking Cleaver turned her back on the 80's, 90's, and now the 00's (is "00" right?). LOL.

You asked me in a previous, previous journal response why I considered being obsessed with naked women a vice... I've been thinking about that one, and I've decided that answering the question would give away more about myself than I feel like giving away on this website. Sorry.

White Noise does look scary as hell. I used to enjoy learning about "paranormal activity", or whatever you want to call it. I'd never heard of electronic voice phenomena before this, though. Lately, things having to do with the paranormal or the occult have become kind of preposterous (more so than normal). I used to read a lot about wicca and other types of paganism (which I see that you're into, from your "Groups"), but in the last couple of years it seems as if paganism has become more of a fad than a spiritual movement. So many books have come out from people who claim to be "experienced" in this. Quite dangerous, in my opinion, as anyone who can hold influence over another with any type of religious instruction has the potential to do greater harm than good to that person's mind... This website is interesting though: Wicca: For the Rest of Us (No More Fluffy Bunnies); the information on it seems grounded in reason, and it's not afraid to mock some of the bullshit that some people in the wiccan/pagan community have been spreading around as if it were fact.

I like you new member-name. Would you pronounce that "Ay-dyah", or "Ah-dah" (hope the way I wrote those out phonetically made sense).

[Edited on Oct 19, 2004 5:39PM]

Yeah, but I'm just talking about community college, not the real deal. That I'll work out for next year. My plan is that I'm hoping it'll look good that I started taking classes already.

And it's kind of hard, because I have to hear both of them complain about each other and I can see some of each of their points, but of course I can't say much because they'll repeat it. Then I get in a world of trouble. Stuck back at my mom's house full time or friendless. Tough decision, so I just try to keep my mouth shut, although sometimes it's hard.

White noise is more than scary as hell, it's scarring! I couldn't blow dry my hair alone this morning after I saw it. Guess I should explain that... I have this crazy fear that while the blow dryer is running someone is going to sneak up on me and kill me and I won't hear them coming. Yeah, I'm interested in that stuff, but it still scares me shitless. Slightly strange situation.
I agree with you on all of that.

Thanks, it's pronounced like it looks, closer to the latter. It's jewish for "beautiful addiction." It's part of my alter-ego, Gwendolyn Adah, or (Gwen) Adah, for short.

reading about happiness and romance may seem like it is better in novels than it is in the real world but i think that the things you experience are better than fiction because its what you do and feel that makes it real. you are the one that has influence on what happens next rather than some words on a page that can't be changed.

i met someone a while ago who hailed from hempfield, pa. i thought that it had to be the coolest town ever but she told me that it was kinda lame.

slipinsin: Indeed that is eeyore on my shirt.
So you want to read Laurell K. Hamilton, that's cool. If you like mystery, detective kind of books you'll probably like her. I'm more partial to the Anita Blake series, but Merry Gentry is a detective (although the first book in that series only talks about it for the first few chapters... haven't read any after the first yet) and if you read Anita, whatever you do, start with the first book in the series (Guilty Pleasures)... unless you're more into reading about sex than character evolution and plot lines, then I'd suggest a more current book, like Narcissus in Chains, Cerulean Sins, or Incubus Dreams, which I haven't read yet.
The book you're reading sounds pretty cool. I might have to check it out.

bpd: Well, I can't argue with that. Yeah, I think everyone gets bored of their hometown because you see it everyday and you just get sick of it. Although, maybe I'm wrong and Pittsburgh just sucks, or Pennsylvania, for that matter.

[Edited on Oct 18, 2004 9:49PM]

welcome to SG pittsburgh kiddo.

Thanks guys.

Poisonous friends... You want to push them away and pull them close at the same time... Eventually, you will have to stand up for yourself. It won't be fun. But, a real friend will listen to you, realize that they've bee hurting you, and change their behavior... If not, then, sad as it may be, they're not really a friend.
People close to me have preyed upon my insecurities in the past as well. They made friendly jokes that were actually quite spiteful underneath the surface. They tried to make me feel inferior to them. They wanted a follower, not an equal... I never had the courage to have that talk with them. However, I did change. They treat me more as an equal now. They don't have a choice. They have no ground to stand on above me. The thing is, I still wish I would have said something...
I hope things get better for you...

On a lighter note: Welcome to SG! Pittsburgh's a great city! I love visiting there. What school do you go to, and what do you study?
David the Knome fucking kicks-ass!!! I LOVED watching that when I was a kid. Haven't seen it in years though. Do they have re-runs on any certain channel? What I liked the most was that they all lived for several hundred years. Much better than the short time we get here...

Schlitzvytz! (Is that how you spell it? LoL)

Thanks for the advice... The thing is I've tried many times and unsuccessfully at that. It's just hard to stand up to someone for a long period of time as it's just not in my nature. I just seem to forget why I would ever find a fault in the person. Thanks also for the welcome to SG. Personally I'm not crazy about Pittsburgh, but that's just me. I'm actually not in college yet, but I plan to go to Pitt... possibly for psychology.

I used to love that show. I haven't seen any re-runs, but I hope someone will come up with the idea soon.