I feel so horrible. The weekend sucked because I picked up Katie from Philadelphia and she not only wasn't appreciative, but acted like a major asshole, too. She even yelled at me while I was driving. I can't even stand her any more. She's not the pleasant person I'm friends with. She's too busy either being overly critical of everything around her, selfish, whiny, immature,...
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What irony, I've been deprived of internet and wanting to write and now I have it and I don't want to at all. 
Go listen to Moonraker. My favorite songs are Shalom and Connected.
Go listen to Moonraker. My favorite songs are Shalom and Connected.
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sqxcm:
Christmas was better than usual. No plans for New Years. I might just get a bottle of wine.
slipinsin:
Glad to hear that your X-Mas went all-right... I hope you have a nice New Year's... A bottle of wine sounds good! 
...I tried to listen to the Moonraker songs, but I couldn't get them to work. I'm not sure what I was doing wrong...??? I'm going out-of-town for a few days. Talk (er, write) to you later... 
...I tried to listen to the Moonraker songs, but I couldn't get them to work. I'm not sure what I was doing wrong...??? I'm going out-of-town for a few days. Talk (er, write) to you later... I wrote this last night but my computer was being stupid and wouldn't post it.
Ugh... I hate be a complainer, but I had the worst week ever. Kate was such an asshole, all week. And she didn't feel like doing anything, so my "vacation" week was sitting in a dorm room, slightly prisoner-like... no, I take it back, VERY prisoner-like. I just feel horrible....
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Ugh... I hate be a complainer, but I had the worst week ever. Kate was such an asshole, all week. And she didn't feel like doing anything, so my "vacation" week was sitting in a dorm room, slightly prisoner-like... no, I take it back, VERY prisoner-like. I just feel horrible....
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slipinsin:
Kate is a poisonous friend. The next time she calls you, wants to do something, etc., ignore her. People like her never change. Sure, on some occasions she's nice to you, and you feel good about your friendship with her and temporarily forget about all of the shitty things that she, on a regular basis, does to you. And then she reverts back to being a bitch; which (from what I've read in your journal entries) is her normal way of acting...
She more than likely does not consciously think I'm going to be mean to Gram right now, for no good reason. Here-in lies the problem. Her natural disposition is to act like a selfish brat, caring only about how she feels. It seems as if she does not have the capacity to realize when she's acting completely unreasonable or when she's treating you poorly. For this reason, she will never change. If you tell her directly how you feel, she might change her behavior for a little while, only as a short-term reaction; but it won't last.
If I'm right about her, then in the long-run, she'll more than likely act in the same selfish ways all of her life.
You seem like a very nice and intelligent person. You can find better friends. You just need to get rid of the one who's a waste of your time and energy first...
She more than likely does not consciously think I'm going to be mean to Gram right now, for no good reason. Here-in lies the problem. Her natural disposition is to act like a selfish brat, caring only about how she feels. It seems as if she does not have the capacity to realize when she's acting completely unreasonable or when she's treating you poorly. For this reason, she will never change. If you tell her directly how you feel, she might change her behavior for a little while, only as a short-term reaction; but it won't last.
If I'm right about her, then in the long-run, she'll more than likely act in the same selfish ways all of her life.
You seem like a very nice and intelligent person. You can find better friends. You just need to get rid of the one who's a waste of your time and energy first...
sqxcm:
You're very perceptive, you know. I can't get rid of her though, I'm too attached and I'd be kind of lonely. Okay, really lonely.
Well I'm off to Philadelphia tomorrow at 5:30 am.
I just remembered I have $13 to my name. I don't have any idea what to get anyone for Christmas, anyway.
Thanksgiving was nice. I've been banned from my family (not that I want to hang out with them anyway) so I went to Kate's house. Food was good, company was good, but it wasn't mine....
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I just remembered I have $13 to my name. I don't have any idea what to get anyone for Christmas, anyway.
Thanksgiving was nice. I've been banned from my family (not that I want to hang out with them anyway) so I went to Kate's house. Food was good, company was good, but it wasn't mine....
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slipinsin:
It was just a joke... I seem to be pissing-off everyone lately...
sqxcm:
Sorry if I seemed pissed off, it wasn't because of you. I was also joking.
Still enraged at myself. Although I forgot to mention that Kate pleasantly surprised me when I told her about it. I thought she was gonna go, ugh gram! blah blah blah stuff that would make me feel worse, but she didn't. She said, oh gram and hugged me and asked if I was alright. Strangely again, Michael was the dick about it. And when I...
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sqxcm:
I could never bring myself to say something like that. I'm just too passive. Kate was threatening to come in to work yesterday and mention something to him, but she didn't luckily. I would have been so embarassed and I would have had to work with him afterwards. Thanks anyway. And thanks for being supportive about the car, too. It's still bothering me a lot.
blinding3rdeye:
Hi!
I'm such a disappointment to myself. I just rear ended somebody last night. It could have been avoided if I had been paying more attention, following less closely, and had better brakes. I'm such an asshole. So I hit this woman in a minivan, and I couldn't see my bumper very well, so I thought it was just a scratch. Her's was just hit on...
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So here I am again.
Whoa. I was playing with a pen and a lighter. Not a good combination, apparently. Well, not mixed with my morbidly strange boredom. So I lit the tip of the pen thinking it would make the ink... something. But the tip just came off, so I started doodling on a piece of paper with the ink pouring out of the...
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Whoa. I was playing with a pen and a lighter. Not a good combination, apparently. Well, not mixed with my morbidly strange boredom. So I lit the tip of the pen thinking it would make the ink... something. But the tip just came off, so I started doodling on a piece of paper with the ink pouring out of the...
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sqxcm:
pics taken with webcam
Hey. Sorry I haven't written in a while. Whoa, it's only been four days. Felt like longer. Anyway, I probably won't be writing much for a while because Kate's coming back for the holiday. Then I'm leaving with her on the 28th (when I won't get to write at all.) Then I'm coming back around the 4th. Then she's coming back for the yuletide festivities....
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slipinsin:
I think that you are beautifully beautiful in a very beautiful way of being beautiful... Don't like that? Can't handle it? Too bad...
In addition to that... Even though none of the pics were sexual in nature, you have a very sexy look about you in a few of them...
So, that makes you beautiful and sexy.
Thanks for posting the pics...
Have fun with Kate...
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In addition to that... Even though none of the pics were sexual in nature, you have a very sexy look about you in a few of them...
So, that makes you beautiful and sexy.
Thanks for posting the pics...
Have fun with Kate...
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sqxcm:
You guys are a good deal for my self esteem. Even though I think you're full of shit. 
Oh, and I changed my mind about my answer to why I'm into voyuerism. It's because I prefer to watch life than live it.
Even though I think you're full of shit.
Oh, and I changed my mind about my answer to why I'm into voyuerism. It's because I prefer to watch life than live it.
Aww. The cutest thing just happened. Cute like the end of a movie when two people misunderstood each other and finally realize that it didn't matter and there's a happy ending.
Long background story shorter: Katie had a huge thing for this guy a long time ago, and has been battling with it for just as long. Said boy had a girlfriend who Katie resented....
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Long background story shorter: Katie had a huge thing for this guy a long time ago, and has been battling with it for just as long. Said boy had a girlfriend who Katie resented....
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slipinsin:
Heeeeeyyyyy what's up???
You should post some more pics of yourself... You're much too pretty to just have a profile pic...
WVU plays Pitt this coming week. Are you into football at all? I am, to a small extent. Post-game drunken riots are a blast (and retarded, but hey, so is pretty much everything else that people do when they're drunk). I got started to get into football after living through the last WVU football riot/couch-burning block-party. But, since there hasn't been any good post-game debauchery lately, I've been slipping back into the "I don't really give a fuck" category. Still, I hope WVU whips Pitt's ass. Of course, if you don't care at all about football, or about the college-in-your-hometown's team, then that last comment won't mean shit... 
That was a pointless little meander. Anyway...
I've been meaning to ask... What's "sqxcm" stand for?
Also... I was reading through your profile... What about voyeurism gets you hot? Have you watched anyone do anything with someone else when they didn't know you were watching?
Tell the truth now. Oh, and mirrors, what do you think is so hot about mirrors? Now, I can use my imagination and come up with a few ideas (very nice ones, too), but I want to know what you think even more...
You should post some more pics of yourself... You're much too pretty to just have a profile pic...
WVU plays Pitt this coming week. Are you into football at all? I am, to a small extent. Post-game drunken riots are a blast (and retarded, but hey, so is pretty much everything else that people do when they're drunk). I got started to get into football after living through the last WVU football riot/couch-burning block-party. But, since there hasn't been any good post-game debauchery lately, I've been slipping back into the "I don't really give a fuck" category. Still, I hope WVU whips Pitt's ass.
Of course, if you don't care at all about football, or about the college-in-your-hometown's team, then that last comment won't mean shit...
That was a pointless little meander. Anyway...
I've been meaning to ask... What's "sqxcm" stand for?
Also... I was reading through your profile... What about voyeurism gets you hot? Have you watched anyone do anything with someone else when they didn't know you were watching?
Tell the truth now. Oh, and mirrors, what do you think is so hot about mirrors? Now, I can use my imagination and come up with a few ideas (very nice ones, too), but I want to know what you think even more...
sqxcm:
hah nice comment...
So I should post more pics? I'll think about it. The compliment was enough that I might have to... possibly just to prove you wrong.
Not into football in the least. The comment was wasted on me. But Pitt should kick WVU's ass, just on principle.
Square Centimeter. It's what my uncle calls me sometimes, because... okay, this is a weird thing that I do. When I'm making like a sandwich or a bagel or... something else when I use condiments and have to spread them, I take forever because I have to spread them evenly. And when I make a baked potato, I have to mix it evenly with butter and sour cream until it looks like mashed potatoes. See, weird.
Voyerism is hot, but no. I think I like voyerism because it's completely not me, if that makes sense. Mirrors, voyerism. I like to watch myself and other people. Not necessarily in a sexual way, actually usually not. Your imagination probably would have suited you better.
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So I should post more pics? I'll think about it. The compliment was enough that I might have to... possibly just to prove you wrong.
Not into football in the least. The comment was wasted on me. But Pitt should kick WVU's ass, just on principle.
Square Centimeter. It's what my uncle calls me sometimes, because... okay, this is a weird thing that I do. When I'm making like a sandwich or a bagel or... something else when I use condiments and have to spread them, I take forever because I have to spread them evenly. And when I make a baked potato, I have to mix it evenly with butter and sour cream until it looks like mashed potatoes. See, weird.
Voyerism is hot, but no. I think I like voyerism because it's completely not me, if that makes sense. Mirrors, voyerism. I like to watch myself and other people. Not necessarily in a sexual way, actually usually not. Your imagination probably would have suited you better.
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I'm such a dork. I spent my Saturday night making faces at my computer screen. Really. hah Kate and I were talking on NetMeeting and somehow she came up with the idea to compete for the best face. She did a western bank robber type face, then drew a mustache and goatee(sp?) with a marker and used the marker as a cigar (I said, man...
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slipinsin:
You should post some of the pics of the faces you made, if you saved any of them!
sqxcm:
Sorry, I don't know any good jokes.
hah I would post them, but it was live, and I didn't record it. I wish I did.
hah I would post them, but it was live, and I didn't record it. I wish I did....has ingredients that may cause "a laxative effect" in "sensitive individuals."
Or so it says on the label of my splenda sweetened ice cream that I enjoyed until I read the fine print. Which brings me to something that bothers me: why don't all food manufacturers take a note from cereal companies. Reading the box is part of the fun. So put something entertaining on...
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Or so it says on the label of my splenda sweetened ice cream that I enjoyed until I read the fine print. Which brings me to something that bothers me: why don't all food manufacturers take a note from cereal companies. Reading the box is part of the fun. So put something entertaining on...
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slipinsin:
Hello again...
sqxcm:
Yay!