I'm such a disappointment to myself. I just rear ended somebody last night. It could have been avoided if I had been paying more attention, following less closely, and had better brakes. I'm such an asshole. So I hit this woman in a minivan, and I couldn't see my bumper very well, so I thought it was just a scratch. Her's was just hit on the corner. Not too much damage. No need to replace the whole thing. I hope. After closer examination, my bumper is so fucked up. The hood of my car is slightly ajar now because of it. The bumper looks like it's kind of just hanging on to the rest of the car. Ugh. I'm so disgusted with myself. I haven't gotten the chance to tell my mom yet. And what am I supposed to say? Hey, mom, I wasn't driving properly and hit someone. Now we have to pay more for my insurance. Fuck I'm too poor for this shit. Why am I such an idiot sometimes? 
Anyway, the woman was really nice. She said she didn't need to call the police if I didn't. They probably would have just fined me. Assholes. Ugh. Okay, I'm changing the topic, this is pissing me off.
So Katie and I had a minor fight again the other night. It was right after the first one, when I went back to her house. I was really tired and I laid down on her couch and turned my back to everyone. Blind trust when not deserved. Stupid me. She threw a coke bottle at my head. I mumbled something or other and just let it go. I thought she'd stop, but no, she wanted my attention and she had to have it (just like a little kid) so she started hitting me with pillows. I got up and chased her around and we ended up circling her dining room table. I went to climb over it, and she got serious and said stop it. I just stayed sort of stepping on it to piss her off. Then her mom started yelling down the stairs to see what the hell we were doing and I stepped down. Katie asked, so I told her that I was pissed off, because friends don't throw things at friends' heads. It's just ridiculous and immature. I mean, what could possibly be the reason? I didn't think it was funny. I just thought, well, I was comfortable, but now my headache's back. And she had the nerve to get pissed off at me for stepping on the table. She just needed an excuse to be mad so it wasn't all her fault. She went upstairs to go to bed and I was debating on if I should go upstairs or just sleep on the couch. As I debated, I fell asleep. I woke up early and just lay there. Eventually everyone woke up and Katie put extra blankets on me. I couldn't be mad at her after that. Not that it's a huge thing, it's just so considerate to do things for people in their sleep, because they don't know, so you're doing it just because you care, no alterior motives.
Oh, and I forgot I wanted to mention this, I realized why I'm afraid of people touching my neck. It's not because of my dad, like I thought. I just remembered the other day that I was afraid of that when I was a kid, because I had to wrap the blanket up to my chin and my neck couldn't be exposed. Although now it's more real because that happened.
I got new glasses. I wasn't trying to look emo or cool when I got them, they're just the only nice kind sold anymore. I swear glasses styles suck. Their objective is how to make you look as bad as possible just by adding a plastic or metal piece over your eyes. But these new glasses are kind of cute.
Anyway, I get to work with Chad today, if I get there early. He's working until 3 and I'm starting at 3. hah I'm such a stalker.
Anyway, the woman was really nice. She said she didn't need to call the police if I didn't. They probably would have just fined me. Assholes. Ugh. Okay, I'm changing the topic, this is pissing me off.
So Katie and I had a minor fight again the other night. It was right after the first one, when I went back to her house. I was really tired and I laid down on her couch and turned my back to everyone. Blind trust when not deserved. Stupid me. She threw a coke bottle at my head. I mumbled something or other and just let it go. I thought she'd stop, but no, she wanted my attention and she had to have it (just like a little kid) so she started hitting me with pillows. I got up and chased her around and we ended up circling her dining room table. I went to climb over it, and she got serious and said stop it. I just stayed sort of stepping on it to piss her off. Then her mom started yelling down the stairs to see what the hell we were doing and I stepped down. Katie asked, so I told her that I was pissed off, because friends don't throw things at friends' heads. It's just ridiculous and immature. I mean, what could possibly be the reason? I didn't think it was funny. I just thought, well, I was comfortable, but now my headache's back. And she had the nerve to get pissed off at me for stepping on the table. She just needed an excuse to be mad so it wasn't all her fault. She went upstairs to go to bed and I was debating on if I should go upstairs or just sleep on the couch. As I debated, I fell asleep. I woke up early and just lay there. Eventually everyone woke up and Katie put extra blankets on me. I couldn't be mad at her after that. Not that it's a huge thing, it's just so considerate to do things for people in their sleep, because they don't know, so you're doing it just because you care, no alterior motives.
Oh, and I forgot I wanted to mention this, I realized why I'm afraid of people touching my neck. It's not because of my dad, like I thought. I just remembered the other day that I was afraid of that when I was a kid, because I had to wrap the blanket up to my chin and my neck couldn't be exposed. Although now it's more real because that happened.
I got new glasses. I wasn't trying to look emo or cool when I got them, they're just the only nice kind sold anymore. I swear glasses styles suck. Their objective is how to make you look as bad as possible just by adding a plastic or metal piece over your eyes. But these new glasses are kind of cute.
Anyway, I get to work with Chad today, if I get there early. He's working until 3 and I'm starting at 3. hah I'm such a stalker.