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More complaints because, as I realize now, I am a complainer. Possibly worse than Kate. hmm.. Maybe not. But up there. So I feel like absolute shit today. I got to work, and figured things would be good because I got to hang out with cool people. No. The kid who reminds me of a teddy bear (because, or maybe why, I want to hug him a lot) was talking to this other girl who looked really nice. Not personality, just that she was really pretty and had really nice hair and clothes. She looked fucking perfect. So I was standing around with her all day, and come on, what's that to my self esteem? And her other perfect friend was there too. Why do people have to look better than me? It's so unfair. Anyway, I felt major self pity, and I just kept going over in my mind the flaws I have and the reasons that I'm no good. Really it wasn't self pity though, it was self depreciation. No, depreciation doesn't work because my thoughts were just truth. ::sigh:: I feel like shit today. Just excuse this and me. I'll stop and leave the thoughts in my head where they belong.