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I have been having the worst luck ever! I know people say that all the time....lord knows I have.....but I really really mean it this time!

I must say, I would not be completely surprised if I went on a tour of the Hatfield Meat company and got involved in some freak accident with a bacon making machine....where all my flesh was ripped of, I was deboned and gutted, and chopped into perfect little slices.....later to be packaged and served up at every grocery store in North America.....where one of you, having a craving for thin cut swine meat, would buy me, take me home, and cook and eat me thinking I was the most delicious bacon you ever had.

hmmm......it is highly possible.

(okay...maybe not highly but possible nonetheless.)

Especially after everything else that has happened....not limited to but including:

- the loss of my favorite keychain.....he was a little pig I got from a funeral parlor....I know, it is rather odd.

- my e-mail getting hacked

- my pet fish AND my pet frog dying on the same day

- my debit card getting lost and having to get a new one was such a headache

- embarrassing moment at work where my CD started skipping AND the computer freezes and shuts down at the very same time leaving me with no music playing and a very unhappy audience

- the fact that I dislocated my thumb on Wednesday....for the second time......owww

- and last...but certainly not least....
my Squeakbot set....which I worked EXTREMELY hard on, put a LOT of money into, and was EXCEPTIONALLY proud of...

got rejected.

Reason.....not enough nudity.

So it is back to the drawing board....and I have to have part of it reshot. Mostly I'm just upset because I really liked it the way it was. I thought that other people would like it. It hurts to have something you're proud of and excited about torn apart. I've been so down about it....I almost feel jaded. And just getting the energy up to work on it again is going to be hard. I wish I hadn't put so much money into it...or I would just say; "F*ck it"...and trash the whole thing. But I've been so upset about the set...and everything else...that I haven't even had the energy to want to look at it to go through and change it.

Blah...oh well....I'm not going to think on it now....I don't need the stress.
I just hate feeling like this. I just hope things start turning around. This is such an unnatural state of mind for me. I'm normally so happy and bouncy. I hate being this sad and angry person.

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