Eeeeep!
Only 10 more days until my surgery!
I can't believe how quickly the time is flying by. I must apologize for not updating on here very much. I have so many restrictions during my recovery....I can't even lift anything over 5 lbs for 6 weeks!!! Sooooo....I've been running about pulling double shifts at work, reorganizing the apartment, doing all my spring cleaning, getting things ready for my vacations (I have three separate trips planned), and preparing for the big day.
I hate always upsetting people. I seem to always have at least someone mad at me at any given moment because of my lack of communication. Okay....well, maybe they are not mad per se...just disappointed or upset.
I am slow to respond to e-mails, call people back on the phone, set up days to see friends, update site profiles, etc.... I've always been that way but lately it has been worse. So to all of you who felt ignored, rejected, or put off by me....I am sorry! Truly truly sorry.
I think the trouble is that when most people say they are busy....it is only for a short amount of time and they still have days off to get things done. When I say I am busy....it means that I have every hour of every day actually filled up. I don't sit around, I don't watch TV, I don't play on the computer.....I work, research, clean, work, study, fix, work, plan, prepare, repeat.
I can go for weeks without seeing my absolute closest friends. Those who have remained close to me over the years are the ones who are most forgiving of my hectic, crazy life and blatant lack of communication. Those who try to befriend me and are in need of constant attention and verification are the ones who get angry and disappear from my life within weeks or months.
I feel terrible about it, but what can I do???
I paid the price this weekend for spreading myself too thin. I pushed even the normal boundaries of the crazy amounts of things I do in a day.
I had tried to get out to my fitting for my bridesmaid's dress, take the bride and her bridesmaids out to lunch (I'm Maid of Honor so I have to do these things), stop in the help my grandmother burn a CD on her computer, get dressed, take my sister out to dinner for her birthday, and then get to work late at night to do the show.
Traffic and time were not on my side and I ended up having to leave dinner early to get to work. I got there too late and lost the show and got in trouble with my boss.....and totally messed up my show partner's money...since she can't do a two girl act herself! I felt terrible...really really terrible. I haven't stopped thinking about it all day.
I wish I could say that I learned my lesson and will no longer plan so much in a day. But truthfully, I'll never change and I will always have a million projects running at once. I don't even have time to relax during my recovery. I'll be working on my Comic Con costume, preparing for my classes at Pennsic (I am teaching this year), getting my pavilion ready for Pennsic, making clothes and re-fitting my choli tops for Pennsic, planning my trip to Dragon Con a few weeks later, finishing my costumes for that......amongst all the check ups and craziness I'll have to deal with because of the surgery.
Anywho....I better get going. I really didn't have time to make this post but I needed to vent.
I'll update again soon....and I'll keep you guys informed on my progress after my surgery!!
*hugs*
Only 10 more days until my surgery!
I can't believe how quickly the time is flying by. I must apologize for not updating on here very much. I have so many restrictions during my recovery....I can't even lift anything over 5 lbs for 6 weeks!!! Sooooo....I've been running about pulling double shifts at work, reorganizing the apartment, doing all my spring cleaning, getting things ready for my vacations (I have three separate trips planned), and preparing for the big day.
I hate always upsetting people. I seem to always have at least someone mad at me at any given moment because of my lack of communication. Okay....well, maybe they are not mad per se...just disappointed or upset.
I am slow to respond to e-mails, call people back on the phone, set up days to see friends, update site profiles, etc.... I've always been that way but lately it has been worse. So to all of you who felt ignored, rejected, or put off by me....I am sorry! Truly truly sorry.
I think the trouble is that when most people say they are busy....it is only for a short amount of time and they still have days off to get things done. When I say I am busy....it means that I have every hour of every day actually filled up. I don't sit around, I don't watch TV, I don't play on the computer.....I work, research, clean, work, study, fix, work, plan, prepare, repeat.
I can go for weeks without seeing my absolute closest friends. Those who have remained close to me over the years are the ones who are most forgiving of my hectic, crazy life and blatant lack of communication. Those who try to befriend me and are in need of constant attention and verification are the ones who get angry and disappear from my life within weeks or months.
I feel terrible about it, but what can I do???
I paid the price this weekend for spreading myself too thin. I pushed even the normal boundaries of the crazy amounts of things I do in a day.
I had tried to get out to my fitting for my bridesmaid's dress, take the bride and her bridesmaids out to lunch (I'm Maid of Honor so I have to do these things), stop in the help my grandmother burn a CD on her computer, get dressed, take my sister out to dinner for her birthday, and then get to work late at night to do the show.
Traffic and time were not on my side and I ended up having to leave dinner early to get to work. I got there too late and lost the show and got in trouble with my boss.....and totally messed up my show partner's money...since she can't do a two girl act herself! I felt terrible...really really terrible. I haven't stopped thinking about it all day.
I wish I could say that I learned my lesson and will no longer plan so much in a day. But truthfully, I'll never change and I will always have a million projects running at once. I don't even have time to relax during my recovery. I'll be working on my Comic Con costume, preparing for my classes at Pennsic (I am teaching this year), getting my pavilion ready for Pennsic, making clothes and re-fitting my choli tops for Pennsic, planning my trip to Dragon Con a few weeks later, finishing my costumes for that......amongst all the check ups and craziness I'll have to deal with because of the surgery.
Anywho....I better get going. I really didn't have time to make this post but I needed to vent.
I'll update again soon....and I'll keep you guys informed on my progress after my surgery!!
*hugs*
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