erg....had a bad day yesterday.
I had one of those just terrible, can't look at yourself in the mirror, cry at the drop of a hat days.
It was the first day I ever left work early.
And I feel so bad about it now.
I just don't know what got into me. I had a rocky morning from the start. I didn't get much sleep and my allergies were bothering me and I was forced to take a Benadryl before getting ready for work. I don't normally take any kind of medication because I always get the side effects...soooo getting through my morning shift on an antihistamine was not easy. I felt numb and loopy the whole day. Actually, I'm lucky I didn't break my neck doing pole work in the state I was in.
On top of all that, I was not feeling very attractive either. I was just having one of those days where you look in the mirror and just see everything that is wrong. Not a good outlook in my line of work as it is almost impossible to convince people to pay money to look at you when you, yourself, can't even look at you!
And then to top things off, one of the girls that I work with said a completely asinine and stupid thing to me. I'm not mad about it, the girl is a bimbo....I mean, -really- out there...she can't even use a three syllable word let alone be held responsible for whatever garbage may spew forth from her mouth. So I know it can't be helped and she had no intention of being mean. She just doesn't know any better. Normally, I just avoid her...as do all the other girls that work there...and let it be known that I never have any problems with anyone at Daydreams. That club is awesome and the girls there rock. But this girl is somewhat new and she was fired from her last job for being a blde Schlampe. Her reputation proceeds her and most of us knew she was trouble from the start.
But it as just that little critical statement she made that was the final thing that pushed me over the edge and I just couldn't work.
I spent the entire night crying. Watching TV...crying. Eating pancakes...crying. I didn't even know why I was crying anymore! And now my head hurts today from crying so damn much. erg....
I need to find a way to get out of this slump. I just hate feeling like this.
I had one of those just terrible, can't look at yourself in the mirror, cry at the drop of a hat days.
It was the first day I ever left work early.
And I feel so bad about it now.
I just don't know what got into me. I had a rocky morning from the start. I didn't get much sleep and my allergies were bothering me and I was forced to take a Benadryl before getting ready for work. I don't normally take any kind of medication because I always get the side effects...soooo getting through my morning shift on an antihistamine was not easy. I felt numb and loopy the whole day. Actually, I'm lucky I didn't break my neck doing pole work in the state I was in.
On top of all that, I was not feeling very attractive either. I was just having one of those days where you look in the mirror and just see everything that is wrong. Not a good outlook in my line of work as it is almost impossible to convince people to pay money to look at you when you, yourself, can't even look at you!
And then to top things off, one of the girls that I work with said a completely asinine and stupid thing to me. I'm not mad about it, the girl is a bimbo....I mean, -really- out there...she can't even use a three syllable word let alone be held responsible for whatever garbage may spew forth from her mouth. So I know it can't be helped and she had no intention of being mean. She just doesn't know any better. Normally, I just avoid her...as do all the other girls that work there...and let it be known that I never have any problems with anyone at Daydreams. That club is awesome and the girls there rock. But this girl is somewhat new and she was fired from her last job for being a blde Schlampe. Her reputation proceeds her and most of us knew she was trouble from the start.
But it as just that little critical statement she made that was the final thing that pushed me over the edge and I just couldn't work.
I spent the entire night crying. Watching TV...crying. Eating pancakes...crying. I didn't even know why I was crying anymore! And now my head hurts today from crying so damn much. erg....
I need to find a way to get out of this slump. I just hate feeling like this.
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It's crazy for me to read that someone as stunning as you goes through that too
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