spud_bliss

i could, or i should say 'should', start working out a couple hours a day. some stretches, the a run, then calistenics, a swim, and every couple days some weights. Should eat better, cook my own food, and prepare my own meals, eat healthier. go register for classes, just one, maybe 2 , to start. get on the right path to the future. i aint got no heart for it though.
the heart is like the engine to a car. every other system can pretty much function without the engine. the gears will move, the a/c will come on, you can listen to the stereo and run the wipers. but without the engine, the gears don't matter... cause the car won't go.
i was thinking about what i'd do if a girl said she wanted to fuck me, or sleep with me or whatever. i'd want to, in my head, in my groin, i'd want to and i know i'd want to, but i'd still just say," no, thank you, ma'am." on monday i hung with red for an hour or so at the mall, after i got my tattoo done. he was saying how he'd like to tell some girl what a great ass she had, and i told him i'd tell her for him, but he said no, knowing that i'd actually do it. he said he was gonna tell megan, the girl the works at the cart next to me, how hot i think she is, and i said go ahead, but he didn't, saying he knows it's pointless 'cause i wouldn't do anything about it. he's right.
i did some myspace survey someone sent around, and i was unabashedly honest, figuring nobody would read it. question like" if you could kill someone and get away with it, who would it be?" answer: everybody
death to all... all or none.
taste death, live life.
fucking a i'd do it. press the button. sometimes i feel that little demon in your head, holding that curtain closed, but he's got his lips up against the split there and he's whispering to you, and his words come out of your mouth, and they scare people. sometimes you're a couple heartbeats away from him throwing those curtains open and jumping forward and grabbing the back of your eyeballs and whispering: i got pans sword,i'm the pan know!
just acuse you'd kill somebody that desrves... that makes you crazy?
what did you do to that little girl ronald?
i burned her.
what do you like to do to old people ronald?
i burn them.
how about the world, ronald, what do you want to do to the world?
Burn it... Burn It All! ha ha.

bompity-bompity-BOMP!