its been a weird year so far. i have been changing emotionally that much i know, and hopefully for the better. it is really weird and so strange for me to say it........hell i dont know if it is because of my parents condition, my condition or a combinatioin of everything. hell i cry at movies now where i would not have even blinked an... Read More
*stomps around* I do what I want! I don't *know* who I am, that's the problem! If I'm going pink, I want to pick something I want to be stuck with forever and ever! The only way I'll know is to try stuff out! So there!
When will you know about another surgery? We believe we'll know where we're going by the end of March, but I want to apply soon so I can still get in for fall semester.
i wanted to thank everyone for sending me messages telling me that they were thinking of me. it has been a rough couple weeks for me. i really dont know what is the matter. i physically am so tired and in alot of pain. mentally i am confused about whats going on and again tired and wore out. i think with me just not being... Read More
ive just read about 2 lil young girls from here who passed away...
woooo it really shaked my brains
fuck life can be gone as fast as a snap of fingers
shittt
how are ay doin?? i have read your blog, i wish i could live closer and take u out tonite...im sick tho haha
i really admire you and yr strenght!!!!!!!! u have my respect!!!!
a big kisssss and wish a rock n rolll 2008 and all the happyness u deserve!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just havent been feeling well, physically and emotionally. i am really just bone tired physically and im worn out. seem like i am waiting for something but dont kow what.....
the doctors took me off my newest pain meds.....seems like i was having some sort of reaction to them....but i do go back in friday... Read More
i am so tired. just bone deep tired. tired of fighting to do the right things. tired of supporting people and things. it is so bad that i dont even have the strength to type my support for a friend. i hate winter and the cold which makes things even worse. i could just sleep forever right now.
made it through testing today.......830am to 2pm.....really sucked. seems like the numbing medicine decided not to work today so the needle in the spine thing was definately felt.....and it sucked. not feeling well right now so i think im going to try to sleep.
Well back to the hospital again tomorrow. Get to spend all day with them running tests on me again.....mylograhm and something else I cant begain to spell let alone type, about 8 hours worth. "Cant eat or drink anything after midnight, no medications but authorized by the doctor...ect, ect, ect". Its really hard because i dont sleep much so not drinking anythng after midnight is... Read More
thanks ... i am really hoping to get a nice digital camera for christmas, so hopefully there will be a lot more pics to share . hope everything goes well at the hospital... i'll send good thoughts your way
Ok now im am over my ranty self and are more into the retrospective mode. Been thinking about my life and the things that have happened to me......hell its thanksgiving time right.
First off i want to say a few things about myself. I am a single child whos father was in the military for all my young life. Some people have called me a... Read More
I am so tired of being in pain and not being able to sleep....just so fucking tired.
ex is driving me crazy....i have to wait till may to go back to court to get custody of my daughter....she gets to tell them who she wants to live with. the ex if she isnt an alcoholic is so damn close that there is no difference. social... Read More
i have decided that people need to kiss or just make out more. I really miss that feeling i had as a teenager when you make out on the couch or in the car....the excitement of it...the anticipation of maybe getting lucky.
seems like people just dont make out like they used to. start kissing and straight to bed. love the make out part which... Read More
well here i am again.....sitting here in my bedroom staring at the walls, the tv and the laptop. the laptop wins and i have decided to check my normal spots on the web.
one more week till i see the doctor and find out whats going on, when i can get the next surgery, if i can drive again (that way life wont be so... Read More
It seems this time of year people are not as good about reading journals because it is so nice out side. But if you keep reading peoples journals they will come around.
. hope everything goes well at the hospital... i'll send good thoughts your way 
hope you get some sleep (hugs)
i hope you can relax a bit soon
Good luck.
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