Tonight has sucked. I can't fucking sleep. If there was 10 million dollars waiting for me in the morning I wouldn't get it. I haven't cried this much since I was a fucking child. I wake up and expect Jacki to be next to me. I constantly think about how many times I fucked up and it kills me. All this pain welling up inside...
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welntaod:
Somethings are less instantaneous than others... If you're game, drop by the group and drop a comment in our New Members Thread. 
morbidkitten:
im not sure of your situation but sometimes you just gotta give it time. if you lost her trust in some way it takes a while to get it back but if you love her its worth the wait. your still really young you have the time sometimes pushing to hard makes things worse. like the first girl said right person wrong time. doesnt mean that cant change in the future 
Depressed and tired. I haven't been able to sleep and the weekend is approaching. My head is spinning constantly thinking about Jacki and wish I could just use a magic wand to make things better. Sorry for the sob stories I've been posting but I just have alot of shit on my mind and need to vent it somewhere. It would be nice to get...
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laceyk:
How was the interview?
spinhouse247:
Things went quite well and I'm almost positive I'll get one of the two jobs I was offered. I have another meeting tomorrow but he has to call me in the morning and let me know what time. Finally I feel like my life is sort of going somewhere.
Long day today but I got alot of things done. The trainer at the gym pushed me really hard so I'm quite beat right now. I'm off to bed in a bit, my body is killing me. I have to eat and have a shake before bed which I'm dreading.
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persya:
mm that sounds sooo yummy!
you made it up??
that's something i'm not very good at doing..making up recipes
you made it up??
that's something i'm not very good at doing..making up recipes
spinhouse247:
I didn't make it up, I just elaborated and added some things to some recipe I saw on the Food Network awhile back. Its by far one of my favorite dishes.
Today was a good day. I woke up early and got alot of things done. I started with highlighting a bunch of jobs in the paper and fixing my resume. Then I worked on the upstairs apartment for a bit. Mom brought me to the gym today to get me a membership and I have an appointment with a trainer tomorrow at 7pm. Aside from...
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vegemite:
yeah you totally thought too much on that one... perhaps I should lend it to you for the SG prom... 
Something nice actually happened tonight. I've been really down the past few days with legal shit, not knowing whats up with Jacki, fixing the house to sell it, not having a license until May etc. My friend Nicole called me because I guess she saw my away message a couple days ago. We had a nice talk and she really gave me some good insight...
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vegemite:
Hopefully things will turn around soon...
Hopefully things will turn around soon...Drinking some beer. Garbage Bud Light again, but it was on sale so what the hell. Jacki is out with one of her sugar daddy's and I'm not going to comment on that since she always ends up here for the big O. I went out with Todd for a bit in Port Chester then Stamford and thought he was going to kill us in...
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A night from hell and a morning from hell. My nerves were all flared up like a fucking pack of hemroids. I'd get into it but it would take hours to type. I spent a few hours outside trying to repair the hot tub but ended up having to order a part, so no hot tub until Monday 
Aside from that I'll hopefully be spending...
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laceyk:
LOL!
spinhouse247:
I guess that was funny...
Tired and stressed... Nothing else to mention.
Bored. I haven't been to the gym in 2 days, so much for the fitness binge. Hopefully I'll motivate and get back into it again soon. Aside from that today was uneventful, took a bunch of shit to the dump, helped Todd fix the brakes on his shitty truck and now just bored. I think I'm going to go read or something. Staring at the...
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temper:
Hm, beer and Autobahn...no, not a good mix. Its all in the organization, though, you fit one between the other - we do it all the time! 
spinhouse247:
Let me know if you would be available as a tour guide. I may just fly over there with Jacki and do a budget Germany tour... Funds are limited so it may not be for awhile because I'm planning a Florida trip with her. After that I'm looking to go Germany and experience the cleanest and most irtrigueing nation in the world...
Drank almost an entire 18 pack of Budweiser last night. I'm fucking shot today. No gym for me...
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laceyk:
Uh oh!
How many times have I missed the gym for that exact reason!
I got an exercise ball today though for home.
I want weights though. LIke 15 pounds.
How many times have I missed the gym for that exact reason!
I got an exercise ball today though for home.
I want weights though. LIke 15 pounds.
spinhouse247:
Budweiser was on sale, $10.99 for an 18 pack at Cumby's. I got myself a 12 pack of Becks and a pizza for tonight. There is nothing in the world as good as German beer. I can't sleep tonight. Every attempt I make at sleep is hampered by some noise which awakens me. We kicked the tenants out since we are selling the house so its been a 2 week ordeal moving their shit out. I don't know how people could ever live in such squalor. I'm not going to get started on those obease, sub human, shitbags that never paid the rent on time and trashed the apartment which I worked so hard to make nice...
Why is it that so many monstrosities are permitted to roam this planet? If there was a god he would have burned them all alive by now...
Jacki is on my mind...
[Edited on Mar 28, 2006 3:07AM]
Why is it that so many monstrosities are permitted to roam this planet? If there was a god he would have burned them all alive by now...
Jacki is on my mind...
[Edited on Mar 28, 2006 3:07AM]