spazzing

i had a terrifying dream last night that someone was in my room. He looked kinda like Zero from holes except grown up and thuggier. it seemed he was counting money on my desk and including some of my lose change into his thievery. i was lying on my bed just as i was irl, on my side with the blankets twisted around me but not on me. i was cold from my fan but i didn't dare move under the covers. i laid there watching him, hoping he would just go away but sure enough he saw me and walked over to me, putting his hands close to my body on the bed and leaning towards my face so he could sniff me. i could feel him and his breath. my heart was pounding and i was terrified. i moved a bit in fright, wanting to jump back away from him, but my little shift only made it seem like i was fidgeting in my sleep. he said something to me. and i somehow managed to sternly tell him to "get the fuck off me". my voice didn't even sound like it was coming from me, it was detached. i still couldn't move at all. but again i said "get the fuck off me zero!" he seemed a bit flabbergasted and i was even more terrified now that he might rape of kill me. i mustered a break from my paralysis and jolted back away from him and woke up. the shadows in my room looked like a man for a moment. my heart was beating so hard i thought it would burst out of my chest. i quickly covered my self with my blankets and turned over. i laid awake for a while forcing myself to think happy things, like my boyfriend in a tail and collar, wearing his saggy jeans and no shirt :3

the dream i had after that was fucking rad as fuck but i cant remember it and i would seriously pay money to do so.

also look, i finished my cake class. roses are tricky as all hell



tom has taken a liking to wearing my tail....or at least he did for one day. i was surprised at how sexy i found it to be on him, hence the thoughts after my scary dream