spazzing

i don't wanna grow up. i wanna be a little kid again and do little kid stuff, get fun presents, dress badly and have people call me cute, be able to play with barbies and pretend im a horse, and never have adult responsibilities. even when i was little, i knew i never wanted to get older. my friends couldn't wait till they could drive or drink or date or all that junk, but i always understood, becoming an adult was bad news.

yesterday, these thoughts had me in quite a slump. and as usual my boyfriend managed to put me back in a decent mood. he can always make me happy. he is like a little kid himself. we share the same sense of humor and have conversations just by facial expressions. we make each other very happy.

so i guess if i'm gonna have to grow up, it won't be so bad if i do it with someone i love and can distract me from all the bad things. thank you Silly Willy i love you sooooooooo much. did you know?


and for the unfortunate souls who read this, i'm sorry, you can go throw up now.