i do believe that i am a masochist in the truest sense of the word..that could be the only reason that i keep putting myself into situations that i know i am going to end up getting hurt, i must like it..slept with (and not much else) scott last night. but, i could let him touch me because it was just so depressing, i cried right there...yeah, i am a baby..the worst thing about it is that im not allowed to tell anyone what happened. he didnt want to lead me on, and i lied and told him that i knew there was nothing b/t us, but secretely i hope, oh god, i hope...it would be so easy to start stalking him, he lives like one apartment complex over from mine and i am so stupid for planning my life around something so temporal like a relationship...well i need a shower, stupid dirty girl.
chaosmonkey:
Don't get hurt, Sparkler. Stay clean. Being dirty's okay, but if you get hurt while you're dirty, you leave yourself open to infections.
